30 October 2007
break another.
Ok, this is it.
3 more days in RI.
and it's over
3rd last day: GCE "O" HMT Paper
2nd last day: RE Congress Finals
Last day: Grad Ceremony
i really don't know how to feel.
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Blake Lewis' new album's gonna be released soon! it's called 'Audio Day Dream' and the first single is titled 'Break Another'.
3 more days in RI.
and it's over
3rd last day: GCE "O" HMT Paper
2nd last day: RE Congress Finals
Last day: Grad Ceremony
i really don't know how to feel.
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Blake Lewis' new album's gonna be released soon! it's called 'Audio Day Dream' and the first single is titled 'Break Another'.
28 October 2007
得寸进尺
Some cancer charity show is on channel 8 tonight. and i thought they just had a charity event 3 weeks back on channel 5, where some people danced like mad and still didn't manage to rake in that much money.
whats more, from the original $5, the minimum donation amount is now $6.
i can't believe even donation costs are increasing.
how to 慷慨解囊?
on a sidenote, i'd be really appreciative if they stopped torturing me with old reruns of drama serials (like aiyoyo/holland v) or eating/travelling/random gameshow programmes.
honestly speaking, i treasure youtube more than the channels 2-7 on my starhub set-up box.
whats more, from the original $5, the minimum donation amount is now $6.
i can't believe even donation costs are increasing.
how to 慷慨解囊?
on a sidenote, i'd be really appreciative if they stopped torturing me with old reruns of drama serials (like aiyoyo/holland v) or eating/travelling/random gameshow programmes.
honestly speaking, i treasure youtube more than the channels 2-7 on my starhub set-up box.
27 October 2007
Week 44 (22nd - 28th October)
1) Won't Go Home Without You - Maroon 5
2) Apologize - Timbaland feat. One Republic
3) 2 Hearts - Kylie Minogue
4) Mr. Pitiful - Matt Costa
5) Can't get along (Without you) - Hard-Fi
6) Polite Dance Song - The Bird and the Bee
7) Fed Up - Remi Nicole
8) Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis
9) 1234 - Feist
10) What's a girl to do - Bat for Lashes
11) Goodbye Mr. A - The Hoosiers
12) Happy Ending - Mika
13) Love's Not A Competition (But I'm Winning) - The Kaiser Chiefs
14) War Pigs - Cake
15) Jenny - The Click Five
16) Saving my face - KT Tunstall
17) Potential Breakup Song - Aly and AJ
18) Long road to ruin - Foo Fighters
19) Crashed - Daughtry
20) Don't waste your time - Kelly Clarkson
21) Candyshop - Madonna
22) Tick Tick Boom - The Hives
23) Stronger - Kanye West
24) The Pretender - Foo Fighters
25) Just A Little Bit - Mutya Buena
2) Apologize - Timbaland feat. One Republic
3) 2 Hearts - Kylie Minogue
4) Mr. Pitiful - Matt Costa
5) Can't get along (Without you) - Hard-Fi
6) Polite Dance Song - The Bird and the Bee
7) Fed Up - Remi Nicole
8) Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis
9) 1234 - Feist
10) What's a girl to do - Bat for Lashes
11) Goodbye Mr. A - The Hoosiers
12) Happy Ending - Mika
13) Love's Not A Competition (But I'm Winning) - The Kaiser Chiefs
14) War Pigs - Cake
15) Jenny - The Click Five
16) Saving my face - KT Tunstall
17) Potential Breakup Song - Aly and AJ
18) Long road to ruin - Foo Fighters
19) Crashed - Daughtry
20) Don't waste your time - Kelly Clarkson
21) Candyshop - Madonna
22) Tick Tick Boom - The Hives
23) Stronger - Kanye West
24) The Pretender - Foo Fighters
25) Just A Little Bit - Mutya Buena
i didn't disappoint.
firstly, like to thank all those who came down to support me!chenhoon, jiajun (both who bought me the lovely flowers), my family (dad, mum, korkor), yanhan, cass & friends, peiyi, aaron, eldwin, qianwei, yuzhou, marvin, and many many more!
I wasn't disappointed by the results, because i knew i aced my performance at the very least. i took a really huge risk this time by doing a quick track, and so i was really appreciative of the judges' positive comments, because that's what mattered most to me ultimately.
i'd prefer it to have gone this way than to have done badly and yet get a ranking which i don't deserve. i'd have felt really guilty if that happened haha.
RS has been a thoroughly enjoyable experience. Being involved in the organization process was really enriching, and I believe this was another large takeaway.Once again, wanna thank all those who've come supported me, hope i can see you guys soon!
Tonight was truly a huge morale booster for me. Thanks guys.
louis and jiawei: "What happened to karliang's head?" 
geek in the pink.
I wasn't disappointed by the results, because i knew i aced my performance at the very least. i took a really huge risk this time by doing a quick track, and so i was really appreciative of the judges' positive comments, because that's what mattered most to me ultimately.
i'd prefer it to have gone this way than to have done badly and yet get a ranking which i don't deserve. i'd have felt really guilty if that happened haha.
RS has been a thoroughly enjoyable experience. Being involved in the organization process was really enriching, and I believe this was another large takeaway.Once again, wanna thank all those who've come supported me, hope i can see you guys soon!
Tonight was truly a huge morale booster for me. Thanks guys.
louis and jiawei: "What happened to karliang's head?" 
geek in the pink.24 October 2007
life is a highway
ahhhh so exciting. RS in 2 days. =D
23 October 2007
A two-faced leader.
As one might know, the recipients for the School Awards are out. I received a Service Award for CEC Council, but not anything for RV. I knew that earlier, because my teacher approached me and asked if I would be ok not receiving it, after all I already have one for Council and maybe I should also give the award to someone as deserving, if not, more deserving than me. Obviously, I didn’t mind at all.
However, one thing I realized while checking the recipients was that everyone in my Exco received an award, except me. So, I decided to clarify things with my teacher.
The bottomline is that, the awards are given based on ‘What you’ve contributed VS Your leadership position’. So essentially, this meant that as a vice-chairman, I didn’t step up to my responsibilities enough. Furthermore, I already got my CCA points.
That got me thinking, and got me emotional.
On the way back home, I was wondering why I am just so damn committed for Council. I just feel like it’s where I belong, I feel like I can be useful. I feel that we just work well together, no squabbling or negativity in our discussions, even within the sec 4s. Things get done. A fair workload is shared. I feel that I’ve carried out my responsibilities well. The atmosphere is just so cheery, I really feel proud to say I belong to the council.
For choir, it’s a whole different ballgame. I just sense tension, even with the people I work with. Some are just so eager to prove themselves, while others are left wondering: ‘What should I do?’ Unfortunately, I’m just stuck in the latter category, not knowing what to do because I don’t want the conflict between certain groups of people to further exacerbate. I didn’t want any negative feelings to seep into future projects, but somehow the situation didn’t get any better. So much so, it came to a period where the leaders got overthrown and things took its own course, and from there on, my confidence was dented. To sum it up, the number of misunderstandings were just too many, and i guess it's hard to resolve such problems.
I started thinking about the point of getting so many leadership positions last year. I guess it somewhat doomed me, having such an exhausting workload on my shoulder over the year, such that I placed too much emphasis on one and not the other. To add on, it somewhat affected my study schedules and inevitably my results.
Thank goodness though, there were no ‘O’ levels. All I can say now is that I treasured the moments and opportunities I’ve been given, and the experiences I’ve gained working with students and teachers would certainly help me in future. I’ve learnt so much, and I guess this incident made me put things into perspective.
Nevertheless, I feel really happy that I’ve been like a korkor to most of the Sec 1 RV’ers, and I believe they feel the same way too. Congrats once again to all the awardees!
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Ok. Final GPA: 3.11
And i figured my L1R5 is 11 points, which is totally horrendous.
This means i can't take a H3 subject!! haha, not as if i'd want to.
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Oh, on a sidenote, stop calling me ‘lim bei’ incessantly please. I know you want me to acknowledge you as my son, but yeah calling me that 100 times non-stop is kind of irritating. besides, i really wouldn't want these people as my sons.
But actually, come to think of it, it’s alright. After all those people who call me that are either:
1) Notorious ‘paikia’-wannabes who either got caned before, or that collecting demerit points is a pastime of theirs, hence do not know what maturity means.
2) Insecure people who only dare to call me when they are in a group, but chicken out when a teacher is around.
3) Some over-sized person from 4K whom I haven’t even talked to in my life. But well, I heard from some people and found out he’s a nutcrack too.
Ok! Call me that one more time, and I shall list your names down here. Oh, and you jolly well know what i'm capable of, and I won't even lay a finger on you. I wonder who’ll have the last laugh then.
However, one thing I realized while checking the recipients was that everyone in my Exco received an award, except me. So, I decided to clarify things with my teacher.
The bottomline is that, the awards are given based on ‘What you’ve contributed VS Your leadership position’. So essentially, this meant that as a vice-chairman, I didn’t step up to my responsibilities enough. Furthermore, I already got my CCA points.
That got me thinking, and got me emotional.
On the way back home, I was wondering why I am just so damn committed for Council. I just feel like it’s where I belong, I feel like I can be useful. I feel that we just work well together, no squabbling or negativity in our discussions, even within the sec 4s. Things get done. A fair workload is shared. I feel that I’ve carried out my responsibilities well. The atmosphere is just so cheery, I really feel proud to say I belong to the council.
For choir, it’s a whole different ballgame. I just sense tension, even with the people I work with. Some are just so eager to prove themselves, while others are left wondering: ‘What should I do?’ Unfortunately, I’m just stuck in the latter category, not knowing what to do because I don’t want the conflict between certain groups of people to further exacerbate. I didn’t want any negative feelings to seep into future projects, but somehow the situation didn’t get any better. So much so, it came to a period where the leaders got overthrown and things took its own course, and from there on, my confidence was dented. To sum it up, the number of misunderstandings were just too many, and i guess it's hard to resolve such problems.
I started thinking about the point of getting so many leadership positions last year. I guess it somewhat doomed me, having such an exhausting workload on my shoulder over the year, such that I placed too much emphasis on one and not the other. To add on, it somewhat affected my study schedules and inevitably my results.
Thank goodness though, there were no ‘O’ levels. All I can say now is that I treasured the moments and opportunities I’ve been given, and the experiences I’ve gained working with students and teachers would certainly help me in future. I’ve learnt so much, and I guess this incident made me put things into perspective.
Nevertheless, I feel really happy that I’ve been like a korkor to most of the Sec 1 RV’ers, and I believe they feel the same way too. Congrats once again to all the awardees!
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Ok. Final GPA: 3.11
And i figured my L1R5 is 11 points, which is totally horrendous.
This means i can't take a H3 subject!! haha, not as if i'd want to.
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Oh, on a sidenote, stop calling me ‘lim bei’ incessantly please. I know you want me to acknowledge you as my son, but yeah calling me that 100 times non-stop is kind of irritating. besides, i really wouldn't want these people as my sons.
But actually, come to think of it, it’s alright. After all those people who call me that are either:
1) Notorious ‘paikia’-wannabes who either got caned before, or that collecting demerit points is a pastime of theirs, hence do not know what maturity means.
2) Insecure people who only dare to call me when they are in a group, but chicken out when a teacher is around.
3) Some over-sized person from 4K whom I haven’t even talked to in my life. But well, I heard from some people and found out he’s a nutcrack too.
Ok! Call me that one more time, and I shall list your names down here. Oh, and you jolly well know what i'm capable of, and I won't even lay a finger on you. I wonder who’ll have the last laugh then.
22 October 2007
H1 MATHS!!
Ok i found this MOE Website
http://schools.moe.edu.sg/ajc/home/Mathematics%20subject%20talk%20%20(2nd%20intake%202006).pdf
It talks about how H1 and H2 Maths differ.
H1 Maths: Provides foundation in Mathematics for students who intend to enroll in university courses such as business, economics and social sciences.
H2 Maths: Prepares students adequately for university courses including Mathematics, physics
and engineering where more mathematics content is required. (Preferably to have obtained C6 grade and above) yeah thanks and I have a C6.
So, since i'm neither taking engineering, physics or mathematics, I'M TAKING H1 FOR SURE. =D
http://schools.moe.edu.sg/ajc/home/Mathematics%20subject%20talk%20%20(2nd%20intake%202006).pdf
It talks about how H1 and H2 Maths differ.
H1 Maths: Provides foundation in Mathematics for students who intend to enroll in university courses such as business, economics and social sciences.
H2 Maths: Prepares students adequately for university courses including Mathematics, physics
and engineering where more mathematics content is required. (Preferably to have obtained C6 grade and above) yeah thanks and I have a C6.
So, since i'm neither taking engineering, physics or mathematics, I'M TAKING H1 FOR SURE. =D
mr. pitiful.
got back the overall marks for all my subjects, save for the sciences which i'm getting back tmr (not like they'll help in my gpa.) here's the breakdown.
Geog: 74, Eng: 75, SS: 85, Malay: 76, Maths: 53, Maths: 53.
Well, i repeated Maths because it's double weightage.
I failed my maths EOY. didn't really see it coming, but well, all the stupid careless mistakes got the better of me. Because of Maths, my current GPA's lingering around a pathetically low 3.13 domain, something i've never seen on my report card.
This indicates that i'm going to take H1 Maths instead of H2, to avoid any tragedies in future.
Before I got back my Maths EOY, sth really freaky happened. Ms Cho was giving back the AMC marks, and I was pleasantly surprised, as she said 'Woah, not bad ah'. I got a Distinction. But this brought back terrible 'deja vu-ic' memories 2 years back, where I got Distinction for AMC too, but received news that I failed my Maths CT shortly after.
SO basically, AMC's a curse. Period.
Oh yes, congrats to Alaric for owning SS and being the 2nd highest-scoring pupil in the batch for SS overall!
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Ok. ended lessons early today at 1235, so some 4j people went to the canteen, waiting for our english review of papers at 135.
some of them went to buy food first. then, some teachers stopped them from doing so, saying it's not time yet. so they had to walk back and wait wait wait. then i thought why can't we eat now, after all, official lessons for us for the day already ended. why can't we just have a bite?
so after much unnecessary hesitation, we went to buy food. then some teachers stopped us again!!! ok then thats when i thought, we got to explain ourselves.
so i explained very courteously to an understanding teacher, saying that our lessons have already finished, and we should have the liberty to at least satisfy our hunger, and in fact we could've gone home like some ppl have done so but we chose not to, and that this situation also occurs during normal curriculum when we have free periods during our last periods and we also eat during these periods, and i see absolutely nothing offensive or morally wrong in doing so.
So, the teacher was understanding enough. and see, there's no need to live in fear. if you feel it's right, just say it!
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oh, and i choose not to go deeper into the issue which i last mentioned in the other post which i wasn't happy with. because, i think it has been resolved somewhat. HEEHEE. =D
Geog: 74, Eng: 75, SS: 85, Malay: 76, Maths: 53, Maths: 53.
Well, i repeated Maths because it's double weightage.
I failed my maths EOY. didn't really see it coming, but well, all the stupid careless mistakes got the better of me. Because of Maths, my current GPA's lingering around a pathetically low 3.13 domain, something i've never seen on my report card.
This indicates that i'm going to take H1 Maths instead of H2, to avoid any tragedies in future.
Before I got back my Maths EOY, sth really freaky happened. Ms Cho was giving back the AMC marks, and I was pleasantly surprised, as she said 'Woah, not bad ah'. I got a Distinction. But this brought back terrible 'deja vu-ic' memories 2 years back, where I got Distinction for AMC too, but received news that I failed my Maths CT shortly after.
SO basically, AMC's a curse. Period.
Oh yes, congrats to Alaric for owning SS and being the 2nd highest-scoring pupil in the batch for SS overall!
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Ok. ended lessons early today at 1235, so some 4j people went to the canteen, waiting for our english review of papers at 135.
some of them went to buy food first. then, some teachers stopped them from doing so, saying it's not time yet. so they had to walk back and wait wait wait. then i thought why can't we eat now, after all, official lessons for us for the day already ended. why can't we just have a bite?
so after much unnecessary hesitation, we went to buy food. then some teachers stopped us again!!! ok then thats when i thought, we got to explain ourselves.
so i explained very courteously to an understanding teacher, saying that our lessons have already finished, and we should have the liberty to at least satisfy our hunger, and in fact we could've gone home like some ppl have done so but we chose not to, and that this situation also occurs during normal curriculum when we have free periods during our last periods and we also eat during these periods, and i see absolutely nothing offensive or morally wrong in doing so.
So, the teacher was understanding enough. and see, there's no need to live in fear. if you feel it's right, just say it!
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oh, and i choose not to go deeper into the issue which i last mentioned in the other post which i wasn't happy with. because, i think it has been resolved somewhat. HEEHEE. =D
21 October 2007
Week 43 (15th - 21st October 2007)
1) 1234 - Feist
2) What's a girl to do - Bat for Lashes
3) 2 Hearts - Kylie Minogue
4) Happy Ending - Mika
5) Polite Dance Song - The Bird and the Bee
6) Won't Go Home Without You - Maroon 5
7) War Pigs - Cake
8) Apologize - Timbaland feat. One Republic
9) Can't get along (Without you) - Hard-Fi
10) Don't waste your time - Kelly Clarkson
11) Stronger - Kanye West
12) Jenny - The Click Five
13) Saving my face - KT Tunstall
14) Goodbye Mr. A - The Hoosiers
15) Long road to ruin - Foo Fighters
16) Potential Breakup Song - Aly and AJ
17) Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis
18) Tick Tick Boom - The Hives
19) Candyshop - Madonna
20) Crashed - Daughtry
21) Just A Little Bit - Mutya Buena
22) Go Mr. Sunshine - Remi Nicole
23) Good Enough - Evanescence
24) The Pretender - Foo Fighters
25) SOS - The Jonas Brothers
2) What's a girl to do - Bat for Lashes
3) 2 Hearts - Kylie Minogue
4) Happy Ending - Mika
5) Polite Dance Song - The Bird and the Bee
6) Won't Go Home Without You - Maroon 5
7) War Pigs - Cake
8) Apologize - Timbaland feat. One Republic
9) Can't get along (Without you) - Hard-Fi
10) Don't waste your time - Kelly Clarkson
11) Stronger - Kanye West
12) Jenny - The Click Five
13) Saving my face - KT Tunstall
14) Goodbye Mr. A - The Hoosiers
15) Long road to ruin - Foo Fighters
16) Potential Breakup Song - Aly and AJ
17) Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis
18) Tick Tick Boom - The Hives
19) Candyshop - Madonna
20) Crashed - Daughtry
21) Just A Little Bit - Mutya Buena
22) Go Mr. Sunshine - Remi Nicole
23) Good Enough - Evanescence
24) The Pretender - Foo Fighters
25) SOS - The Jonas Brothers
18 October 2007
Love's not a competition (but i'm winning)
Yay, i've made it to the finals of Rafflesian Spotlight!
So here are the details:
Date: 26th October 2007 (Friday)
Time: 1930 - 2200
Ticket prices : Yet to be confirmed
People who are interested in watching this singing competition, please contact me if you want tickets yeah! And also, if you have any suggestions for songs which I should sing for the finals, please tell me too! I am clueless as to what I should sing.
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Looks like the next 2 weeks are set to be killer weeks (I thought there'd be nothing after the EOYs, but looks like i was fooled again)
23rd and 25th Oct : Interclass Soccer
31st Oct: HMT 'O' Level Examinations
1st Nov: RE Congress (we're presenting!)
2nd Nov: Graduation Ceremony
5th Nov: Graduation Dinner
And include the small group choir pracs and focus music. that's totally insane.
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I loved the movie 'Bowling for Columbine' by Michael Moore. It was a superb documentary, and it raises the issue of how guns ironically is used as a symbol of both freedom in America and also how it self-destructs its citizens due to the violence of gunhandling. Haha, and the movie showed Marilyn Manson in a rather positive light, dispelling all the rumors about him being eccentric and all.
The funniest part was when he sarcastically inserted 'What a Wonderful World''s song on a montage of all the bad American foreign policy decisions which caused the lives of millions. great movie, go catch it.
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I wanted to say something that bothered me greatly today on this blog, but I guess I shan't, for fear of unwanted attention. But i'm still pretty much frustrated over it. In fact, VERY MUCH affected by it. I guess some people know what I mean. Well, I guess this issue can be raised in my feedback about RP.
So here are the details:
Date: 26th October 2007 (Friday)
Time: 1930 - 2200
Ticket prices : Yet to be confirmed
People who are interested in watching this singing competition, please contact me if you want tickets yeah! And also, if you have any suggestions for songs which I should sing for the finals, please tell me too! I am clueless as to what I should sing.
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Looks like the next 2 weeks are set to be killer weeks (I thought there'd be nothing after the EOYs, but looks like i was fooled again)
23rd and 25th Oct : Interclass Soccer
31st Oct: HMT 'O' Level Examinations
1st Nov: RE Congress (we're presenting!)
2nd Nov: Graduation Ceremony
5th Nov: Graduation Dinner
And include the small group choir pracs and focus music. that's totally insane.
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I loved the movie 'Bowling for Columbine' by Michael Moore. It was a superb documentary, and it raises the issue of how guns ironically is used as a symbol of both freedom in America and also how it self-destructs its citizens due to the violence of gunhandling. Haha, and the movie showed Marilyn Manson in a rather positive light, dispelling all the rumors about him being eccentric and all.
The funniest part was when he sarcastically inserted 'What a Wonderful World''s song on a montage of all the bad American foreign policy decisions which caused the lives of millions. great movie, go catch it.
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I wanted to say something that bothered me greatly today on this blog, but I guess I shan't, for fear of unwanted attention. But i'm still pretty much frustrated over it. In fact, VERY MUCH affected by it. I guess some people know what I mean. Well, I guess this issue can be raised in my feedback about RP.
16 October 2007
Competitiveness and Defensiveness
I guess many things in my life have revolved around these two traits of mine, which can either make or break me.
Anyone who has known me for a period of time would know that I’m a very competitive person, one that never accepts defeat regardless of what I seek to do. This sometimes drives people up the wall due to my absurdity and exaggeration of doing things.
My life in RI has pretty much shown it all. The very first few Interhouse Debates I had in Sec 1 pitted me against some teams consisting of Sec 4s. When I lost, I just got so bitter and upset over it. Yes, I whined over it, I asked myself why I lost when obviously my team was supposedly superior. Looking back, I wonder why I even felt so lousy, considering that I’ve joined the following 3 Interhouse Debates and done pretty well for Buckley.
Everyone has experienced defeat before, but it all depends on how you overcome that defeat and emerge stronger. Well, for me, I can’t accept defeat easily. Take for example this year’s Inter-house competitions: DramaFeste and the Chinese New Year celebrations. My house came in 5th for both.
I cried over CNY celebration results, and felt really down for DramaFeste. Both were team efforts, and I really developed this emotional bond during that phase. I knew inside my heart that every House put in their all for every performance, and when it came to crunch time, it was just a matter of ‘who did better’.
Sadly, Lady Luck isn’t always by my side, and I often get the worst case scenarios. Therefore, I had to air my dissatisfactions and just whined about anything I could at that moment. I guess this attitude was probably why I got flamed by random people on my tagboard, and the rise of many misunderstandings. Thinking back, it’s really funny to see what happened in the past.
Like every competition, there are winners and losers, but I just refuse to be the loser. For the Arena, I was confident that my team was superior to the others, yet we still lost. Till today, I still keep hanging on to the belief that MediaCorp wanted groups that had entertainment value (look at the Loyang girl), and perhaps my team lacked that on-screen presence. Till today, I still feel bitter about not being given that opportunity, which I thought we worked our butts off in hopes of entering the televised competition. Well, but I guess such things are beyond our control, and nothing much can be done about it.
RS last year too was disappointing for me. I didn’t even make it through the 2nd round of audition, and honestly speaking, I still remain baffled by that. I put the blame on the unqualified judges, and I blame it on everything else except myself. See, how defensive can I get. =P OH well, I guess it’s a blessing in disguise nevertheless, as I’m in the finals of this year’s RS. I really hope to get that iPod Touch because it looks really gorgeous.
Similar to that was Campus Superstar. My friends were really supportive of me, and I thought I had it going. Not until the audition round did I realize I had much more to work on and perhaps the time just wasn’t ripe yet. It was really interesting though, to know of a friend who entered the competition. And we talked about many things about the show, the things happening behind-the-scenes and many more. Having said that, it’s just nature for me to criticize those contestant’s performances, and I don’t know why, but I just love criticizing.
Maybe that’s why karma bit me in the back. As people already know, I’ve performed several times in school, well namely Intl Friendship day (We are the World), Teachers Day (Chasing Cars & Home), and the CNY competition. Haha, indeed I screwed up one performance really badly, and I received much flak about it. Judging from the perspective of a typical Rafflesian who’s highly hypocritical, I was prepared for harsh criticism. True enough, some people commented that ‘I sucked’ when Walter posted my ‘Chasing Cars’ video on his blog, Some very unpleasant things happened too.
The Performance Arts is something which is tough to please everyone. Nevertheless, some people appreciated my performance, and some teachers even praised me, and those are the memories which I will keep with me. On the other hand, I’ll work on the harsh things said by others, and avoid committing the same mistakes again on stage.
I have developed this love-hate relationship with competitions; I love joining them, but I hate losing them. The reality remains that you can’t be a winner all the time, and I’ve learnt this fact the hard way over the years.
Competitions give me the incentive to strive hard, for example, I compare my GPA to Lionel’s. This is healthy competition. Unhealthy and needless competitions which are insignificant yet I bother so much about them include: Finding out if I’m still 1st in the Facebook Attack scoreboard or finding out if I’m winning my Fight Club match.
4 years it has been in RI. I have made some really great friends who understand me and who just get along really well with me. But during these 4 years, some people have rubbed me in the wrong way, and I have rubbed some in the wrong way too. In light of this, I really hope no one bears a grudge against me, neither do I see the point bearing a grudge against anyone. After all, we’re only 16, why fret over the minute?
Anyone who has known me for a period of time would know that I’m a very competitive person, one that never accepts defeat regardless of what I seek to do. This sometimes drives people up the wall due to my absurdity and exaggeration of doing things.
My life in RI has pretty much shown it all. The very first few Interhouse Debates I had in Sec 1 pitted me against some teams consisting of Sec 4s. When I lost, I just got so bitter and upset over it. Yes, I whined over it, I asked myself why I lost when obviously my team was supposedly superior. Looking back, I wonder why I even felt so lousy, considering that I’ve joined the following 3 Interhouse Debates and done pretty well for Buckley.
Everyone has experienced defeat before, but it all depends on how you overcome that defeat and emerge stronger. Well, for me, I can’t accept defeat easily. Take for example this year’s Inter-house competitions: DramaFeste and the Chinese New Year celebrations. My house came in 5th for both.
I cried over CNY celebration results, and felt really down for DramaFeste. Both were team efforts, and I really developed this emotional bond during that phase. I knew inside my heart that every House put in their all for every performance, and when it came to crunch time, it was just a matter of ‘who did better’.
Sadly, Lady Luck isn’t always by my side, and I often get the worst case scenarios. Therefore, I had to air my dissatisfactions and just whined about anything I could at that moment. I guess this attitude was probably why I got flamed by random people on my tagboard, and the rise of many misunderstandings. Thinking back, it’s really funny to see what happened in the past.
Like every competition, there are winners and losers, but I just refuse to be the loser. For the Arena, I was confident that my team was superior to the others, yet we still lost. Till today, I still keep hanging on to the belief that MediaCorp wanted groups that had entertainment value (look at the Loyang girl), and perhaps my team lacked that on-screen presence. Till today, I still feel bitter about not being given that opportunity, which I thought we worked our butts off in hopes of entering the televised competition. Well, but I guess such things are beyond our control, and nothing much can be done about it.
RS last year too was disappointing for me. I didn’t even make it through the 2nd round of audition, and honestly speaking, I still remain baffled by that. I put the blame on the unqualified judges, and I blame it on everything else except myself. See, how defensive can I get. =P OH well, I guess it’s a blessing in disguise nevertheless, as I’m in the finals of this year’s RS. I really hope to get that iPod Touch because it looks really gorgeous.
Similar to that was Campus Superstar. My friends were really supportive of me, and I thought I had it going. Not until the audition round did I realize I had much more to work on and perhaps the time just wasn’t ripe yet. It was really interesting though, to know of a friend who entered the competition. And we talked about many things about the show, the things happening behind-the-scenes and many more. Having said that, it’s just nature for me to criticize those contestant’s performances, and I don’t know why, but I just love criticizing.
Maybe that’s why karma bit me in the back. As people already know, I’ve performed several times in school, well namely Intl Friendship day (We are the World), Teachers Day (Chasing Cars & Home), and the CNY competition. Haha, indeed I screwed up one performance really badly, and I received much flak about it. Judging from the perspective of a typical Rafflesian who’s highly hypocritical, I was prepared for harsh criticism. True enough, some people commented that ‘I sucked’ when Walter posted my ‘Chasing Cars’ video on his blog, Some very unpleasant things happened too.
The Performance Arts is something which is tough to please everyone. Nevertheless, some people appreciated my performance, and some teachers even praised me, and those are the memories which I will keep with me. On the other hand, I’ll work on the harsh things said by others, and avoid committing the same mistakes again on stage.
I have developed this love-hate relationship with competitions; I love joining them, but I hate losing them. The reality remains that you can’t be a winner all the time, and I’ve learnt this fact the hard way over the years.
Competitions give me the incentive to strive hard, for example, I compare my GPA to Lionel’s. This is healthy competition. Unhealthy and needless competitions which are insignificant yet I bother so much about them include: Finding out if I’m still 1st in the Facebook Attack scoreboard or finding out if I’m winning my Fight Club match.
4 years it has been in RI. I have made some really great friends who understand me and who just get along really well with me. But during these 4 years, some people have rubbed me in the wrong way, and I have rubbed some in the wrong way too. In light of this, I really hope no one bears a grudge against me, neither do I see the point bearing a grudge against anyone. After all, we’re only 16, why fret over the minute?
13 October 2007
Week 42 (8th - 14th Oct 2007)
1) War Pigs - Cake
2) 1234 - Feist
3) Goodbye Mr. A - The Hoosiers
4) What's a girl to do - Bat for Lashes
5) Don't waste your time - Kelly Clarkson
6) Tick Tick Boom - The Hives
7) Happy Ending - Mika
8) Potential Breakup Song - Aly and AJ
9) Go Mr. Sunshine - Remi Nicole
10) Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis
11) Jenny - The Click Five
12) Just A Little Bit - Mutya Buena
13) Crashed - Daughtry
14) Candyshop - Madonna
15) Stronger - Kanye West
16) SOS - The Jonas Brothers
17) In this life - Delta Goodrem
18) Indian Summer - Manic Street Preachers
19) The Pretender - Foo Fighters
20) Bubbly - Colbie Calilat
21) Good Enough - Evanescence
22) Gimme More - Britney Spears
23) The Way I Are - Timbaland feat. Keri Hilson
24) Sexy! No, no, no… - Girls Aloud
25) No One - Alicia Keys
2) 1234 - Feist
3) Goodbye Mr. A - The Hoosiers
4) What's a girl to do - Bat for Lashes
5) Don't waste your time - Kelly Clarkson
6) Tick Tick Boom - The Hives
7) Happy Ending - Mika
8) Potential Breakup Song - Aly and AJ
9) Go Mr. Sunshine - Remi Nicole
10) Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis
11) Jenny - The Click Five
12) Just A Little Bit - Mutya Buena
13) Crashed - Daughtry
14) Candyshop - Madonna
15) Stronger - Kanye West
16) SOS - The Jonas Brothers
17) In this life - Delta Goodrem
18) Indian Summer - Manic Street Preachers
19) The Pretender - Foo Fighters
20) Bubbly - Colbie Calilat
21) Good Enough - Evanescence
22) Gimme More - Britney Spears
23) The Way I Are - Timbaland feat. Keri Hilson
24) Sexy! No, no, no… - Girls Aloud
25) No One - Alicia Keys
09 October 2007
Sciences are not my cup of tea.
The EOYs are finally over, well for me at the very least. Of course, this final examination that I have in RI wasn’t a breeze. With the exception of Maths and the Sciences, I was convinced I had done well in the other subjects.
The thing that instigated me to write about how I’m not taking up any sciences when I go to RJ was today’s Physics paper, which is a DEFINITE fail for me. (Yes, fail meaning below 40 out of a possible 80 marks. I would be so pleasantly surprised if I can even pass.)
It’s not that I’m not hardworking, it’s not that I didn’t pay attention in class; (Ok even if I did pay attention in class, the things I learnt from each lesson wasn’t much, so I had to rely largely on my more reliable textbooks and study guides.) Although I can grasp the concepts fairly well, I just can’t apply the knowledge into unconventional questions, which is often the case that happens in test papers.
This went the same for Chemistry, where I chose the MCQ answers based on simple reasoning and gut feeling, and just attempted to answer every Section B question, irregardless whether it was right or wrong. On the other hand, I had this inner confidence for my humanities subjects that I wanted more time so that I could complete my ‘thesis’. (Geog, SS, English).
In short, this EOYs have asserted the fact that I’m a goner at sciences and I’ll not subject myself to taking up sciences in RJ and die a really horrible death. I’d prefer to do subjects which I’m strong in, and which can help me attain better results. Hallelujah Humanities!
And now, I'll be back to my finish tasks at hand. Interclass Soccer (ok i'll try get it done ok guys?), Graduation Ceremony, Graduation Dinner and Rafflesian Spotlight. Adios.
[I wish i could fly like David Copperfield.] [Sorry if i haven't been updating that often lately, coz facebook's seriously gotten everyone hooked.]
06 October 2007
Week 41 (1st - 7th October 2007)
1) Go Mr. Sunshine - Remi Nicole
2) Jenny - The Click Five
3) Tick Tick Boom - The Hives
4) Just A Little Bit - Mutya Buena
5) Crashed - Daughtry
6) Potential Breakup Song - Aly and AJ
7) Stronger - Kanye West
8) Good Enough - Evanescence
9) SOS - The Jonas Brothers
10) Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis
11) In this life - Delta Goodrem
12) Indian Summer - Manic Street Preachers
13) Sexy! No, no, no… - Girls Aloud
14) The Pretender - Foo Fighters
15) No One - Alicia Keys
16) Not sorry - Terra Naomi
17) Happy Ending - Mika
18) The Way I Are - Timbaland feat. Keri Hilson
19) Candyshop - Madonna
20) Bubbly - Colbie Calilat
21) Where I stood - Missy Higgins
22) Valerie - Mark Ronson feat. Amy Winehouse
23) Gimme More - Britney Spears (gimme more's #3 in billboard hot 100!)
24) Inconsolable - Backstreet Boys
25)Dark Road - Annie Lennox
2) Jenny - The Click Five
3) Tick Tick Boom - The Hives
4) Just A Little Bit - Mutya Buena
5) Crashed - Daughtry
6) Potential Breakup Song - Aly and AJ
7) Stronger - Kanye West
8) Good Enough - Evanescence
9) SOS - The Jonas Brothers
10) Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis
11) In this life - Delta Goodrem
12) Indian Summer - Manic Street Preachers
13) Sexy! No, no, no… - Girls Aloud
14) The Pretender - Foo Fighters
15) No One - Alicia Keys
16) Not sorry - Terra Naomi
17) Happy Ending - Mika
18) The Way I Are - Timbaland feat. Keri Hilson
19) Candyshop - Madonna
20) Bubbly - Colbie Calilat
21) Where I stood - Missy Higgins
22) Valerie - Mark Ronson feat. Amy Winehouse
23) Gimme More - Britney Spears (gimme more's #3 in billboard hot 100!)
24) Inconsolable - Backstreet Boys
25)Dark Road - Annie Lennox
04 October 2007
SOS
its scary to realize that my secondary school curriculum ended today.
no more normal lessons. no more performance tasks and quizzes, no more projects left in stalled for me in RI. my leadership responsibilities have mostly been handed down to the next batch of capable leaders.
well, we'll be leaving for RJ in 3 months, but the first hurdle we have to cross are the EOYs. i feel rather confident with a bulk of the subjects now, considering the teachers went through some comprehensive revision the past few lessons. that really helped me to consolidate the framework of this year's syllabus.
good luck everyone for your EOYs. let's work hard for the next 5-7 days (it's 5 days for me!) and after that we can proclaim OOOORAH!!!!!!!!! YAYY!!!!!!
oops, i forgot. we still have our chinese 'O's. =(
[louis is sitting at the last row in the hall tomorrow. that makes him feel really lonely and bored because he wants to be somewhere around the middle.]
haha, i subscribed to the xfactor programme on youtube. just saw this clip, really interesting coz one of the judges got the rejected solo contestants to form a boyband/girlband on their own, with the former managing to surprise simon cowell.
ah yes, those who are interested in the humanities scholarship, i need to discuss with you about it, as im rather interested!!!
no more normal lessons. no more performance tasks and quizzes, no more projects left in stalled for me in RI. my leadership responsibilities have mostly been handed down to the next batch of capable leaders.
well, we'll be leaving for RJ in 3 months, but the first hurdle we have to cross are the EOYs. i feel rather confident with a bulk of the subjects now, considering the teachers went through some comprehensive revision the past few lessons. that really helped me to consolidate the framework of this year's syllabus.
good luck everyone for your EOYs. let's work hard for the next 5-7 days (it's 5 days for me!) and after that we can proclaim OOOORAH!!!!!!!!! YAYY!!!!!!
oops, i forgot. we still have our chinese 'O's. =(
[louis is sitting at the last row in the hall tomorrow. that makes him feel really lonely and bored because he wants to be somewhere around the middle.]
haha, i subscribed to the xfactor programme on youtube. just saw this clip, really interesting coz one of the judges got the rejected solo contestants to form a boyband/girlband on their own, with the former managing to surprise simon cowell.
ah yes, those who are interested in the humanities scholarship, i need to discuss with you about it, as im rather interested!!!
01 October 2007
unite?
lol, david letterman was being really evil to paris hilton. this was taken yesterday on the "Late Show with David Letterman"
'is that your friend from jail?'
alright, not talking much.
prometheum day took place today. got my recognition plaque, changed the symbol to a Star Award look-alike trophy haha, and handed over my leadership responsiblities.
to all new leaders, all the best in your future endeavors. esp to kengchee, do cec council proud!!
oh and i heard a philo teacher is no longer in school. well, i guess its a matter of time, since he barely thought us a single thing since term 2 ended.
'is that your friend from jail?'
alright, not talking much.
prometheum day took place today. got my recognition plaque, changed the symbol to a Star Award look-alike trophy haha, and handed over my leadership responsiblities.
to all new leaders, all the best in your future endeavors. esp to kengchee, do cec council proud!!
oh and i heard a philo teacher is no longer in school. well, i guess its a matter of time, since he barely thought us a single thing since term 2 ended.
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