kartik ownedddd. i so loved his arena speech. it's just so different and unique compared to the other fast-paced, yaddayaddayadda rattering speeches.

"you've talked about a zoo here a zoo there a zoo everywhere." and he started saying that the hci team just talked about many many zoos with only empty cages.
"let us silently contemplate. HMM...i may be silently contemplating about political issues or i may be silently contemplating about going home."
you could see anish nodding his head in approval. hahaha. that's why RI won 54-46 wooo.

had the first cec council meeting today. gotta tell you, i'm rather bad at faciliating conversations. whenever i finish talking, there'll be this air of silence hovering around the meeting room, and then ms chang and i will just break out in laughter. LOL. but generally everything that was required to be covered was covered, which is a good thing. and attendance was rather good, with 10/14 ppl attending. ms chang told me that i'm definitely not going PS convention (yansheng, chriskwan, jiahao replacing me,ansai and gabby... so saddddd...)

after meeting, went to see PI for a while. i really liked the chereo where they form a long straight line along the aisle in the hall. song choice sounds rather boringg.. hardly any climax one lol. hmm....mrs albar wants my RE group to go to melrose home tomorrow. but the problem is that i have PI rehearsal ushering duty at 1130, and once again I FACE TWO PRESSING OPTIONS, and i'll have to sacrifice one.

i have to explain to mrs albar.

oh something retardedly funny happened during philo lesson. danny took out his handphone and started taking photos of mr alvin tan. then he started to voluntarily pose in front of the camera, as though he really thought he was the suave and charming james bond. then afterwards, an zhen started posing with him. everyone laughed like mad please. i bet you some moral ethical theory was running thru his thoughts as he was doing that.

did my chinese cct today. thought it was pretty easy, considering the fact that i had exactly the same answers as xiaoxiao for zong he tian kong. and i also managed to write 'cu yong' HAHA. and its so irritating because i SPENT 3 HOURS on the ciyu alone. in the end, only 2 ciyu came out, 1 of which didn't even come from the ciyu shouce.

how dumb is it when mrs albar tells me to write a 200-word-essay on 'life as a hairball'. WHAT IN THE WORLD IS A HAIRBALL??? nevertheless, i managed to write a totally hot and hilarious essay of a hairball. i'll try and upload it tomorrow. when i get my paper back.

i like this new timetable format whenever there is a cct. all lessons will be cut short by 10 minutes in order to make time for the cct, instead of just replacing one subject lesson with the cct. makes it fairer to other subject teachers. and in this way, lessons seem less dreary. good!

i didn't do as well for my lukluk audition compared to everyone sang. thats just tragic, coz lukluk has hell lot of low range notes which I CANNOT EVEN HIT lor thank you. and while i was sitting back watching the auditions, i saw some people using their hands to pulse rhythms. and their hands often lie at undesirable places. its really intriguing to see how people sometimes don't realize how their actions are inadvertantly offensive/entertaining to other people. they need to be more aware of the surroundings haha.

speaking of which, i came to realize that BOTH arthur and ziyang are in the CEC council as well! that makes a total of 3 RV'ers in the 14 strong cec council.

i'm still very flustered and caught up between the RG Peersupport convention as opposed to choir camp. one is something i have always been looking forward to since sec 1. the opportunity to interact with ppl from other schools and exchange our peer support programmes, at the same time widening your social networking, given the fact that i'm cecc chairman hence there's no reason as to why i shouldn't go). for choir camp, it's the very first time we're spearheading the programme for the camp, and its very important as we need to portray that we're involved and dedicated to the choir. both are equally important.

i decided to tell ms chang that i'm not going for the convention, coz whats at priority is syf. and thats what important. so glad she understood where i was getting at. one thing that i'll regret is that i didnt seize the opportunity to go for something which i always wanted to go for =( . never mind, theres always a second chance.
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i have managed to contain myself from playing games. AND I SUCCEEDED!!! in fact, i did a lot today. a lot.
i did my maths homework.
i did my english application question halfway LOL.
i finished my cec council agenda, and the cec investiture procedure, and the cec contact list, and the cec councilbadge. (kexin rocks man, he came out with a lot of useful proposals for me to build on. thanks kexxxinnn!!!!)
i feel accomplished man.
i'm getting fired up i tell you.


photo of the leaders-in-action workshop. so far, i've only msned jingyi. no one else seems to have msn, either that or they're superduperfergaliciously busy.

realitygossip:
CONGRATS TO JENNIFER HUDSON AND HELEN MIRREN ON THEIR OSCAR WINS!
my brother told me something which he and i both found offensive.
martin scorcese won for best director. and 'the departed' was awarded best MOVIE and best ADAPTED screenplay. when the results were announced, the voiceover for the winning entry said: "The Departed, adapted from a Japanese film, Infernal Affairs..." THANK GOD martin scorcese corrected by saying its a HONGKONG film.
this shows the due disrespect that oscars credit to asian films, granted the fact that the departed was based on infernal affairs, and they still dare to award it as the best movie when they did not even know the origins of the original movie. ridiculous isn't it.

bloody hell, rob and amber came in first. AGAIN. and i officially love the dwarf Charla. shes just so cute, and i don't see why some teams hate them. they can't empathize with the woes of charla. shallow-minded people.

kuangnan just called me to say i'm doing triple jump
i smsed marvin to see whether can join other events, and he said the list can't be changed.

what is this?
and i'm telling you I'M NOT GOING, coz
a) it clashes with my third lang schedule and i'm not skipping malay classes coz i already am starting to flunk it.
b) i'm a nutcase at triple jump.
c) i wanted to run 800m coz i ran 800 last year, and i can't run 800 this year because the list can't be changed.

i thought there were supposed to be HEATS? then they should allow as many participants to join, isn't it? its so weird that they're restricting the number of participants. and i'll bet you some ppl in 800m wouldn't turn up on that day, making it more frustrating.

thank you so much, but for the very first time, i'm declining an offer from buckley. sorry.

blake lewis was ranked 4th amongst the 12 guys in terms of number of calls.



he has got to be first, dude.

ok this stinks. i can't upload photos today. weird. blogger doesn't allow me to.

started the saturday with a leaders-in-action workshop at SMU organized by Talentpreneur Hub. it's about leaders from different schools coming together and sharing their views and experiences. at the same time, it also allows leaders to understand different leadership styles and how to apply them in school life in order to build and lead effective teams. thought the concept was fresh, as this was beyond the school context and it extended our as-always-limited interaction with only the raffles community. guess life's more than just that.

the facilitators were around 25+, and they were really lively and bubbly. when nich and i reached there, they straightaway hooked us up in a conversation and there was an ex-rafflesian who was a facilitator, making things less awkward.
started off with ice-breakers, then we started introducing ourselves. we had to pass this tennis ball to a person once we've finished our self-intro. after i finished introing myself, i threw the ball at the opposite end of the circle we were sitting in, and it HIT THE BLOODY roof. so malu please. (but never mind, after that there was another girl who did the same thing)

the whole workshop was rather bitesize, due to the time constraints. but i believe what was most important was the networking and the sharing of experiences amongst ppl of our age, and leaders who are facing the same problems as us. acts as a constant reminder that we're not alone and that if you think your life is screwed, think about other ppl's screwed lives and how they've tried to make a difference or do something about it.

i promise i'll upload the photos once my blogger is working.have some pictures of my mom's family's yusheng photos @ my house, and the photos looked like a copy of gregory's reunion dinner photos. >.<
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OH I HAVE TO SAY SOMETHING REALLY HOT. i have this new neighbour opposite my house. it consists of an angmoh father, a asian-american wife, and 4 kids, aged 11,17,31 and 35 (the youngest child, Edward, corrected his dad, saying that the oldest kid was 34, NOT 35). the boy's really interesting coz he doesn't know what 'insensitive' means and he just told my mum everything about their family background in a mere 20 seconds.

"is she your mum?" - asked my mum.
"NO. she's NOT MY MUM. she's my *whispers* STEPMOM." - boy replies.
"this is my dad's 3rd marriage and she's NOT my mom." - boy continues.
the boy later then went on to say that his dad has a harley davidson bike that's more expensive than the car they own. and he's from acs (junior).

WELCOME TO WISTERIA LANE.
mingzhe wanted me to sing a fish song.

went this jap restuarant at cineleisure with alaric,lionel,karl and isaac (wenjian had to go training). i think i'll be humming 'and i'm telling you i'm not going' for the next few weeks.

what you're gonna read next in the next sentence is an IDOL SPOILER.

paul kim, amy krebs, nicole tranquillo (shockingly) and rudy cardenas (shockingly) are eliminated. gone. poof. no asian winner with paul making an exit.

ok first a reply to all the tags
[melodie]: i reached home at 845. thank you HAHA.
[alaric]: i'm supporting lakisha, lakisha and lakisha.
[guan]: i haven't update for this week yet. must wait for end of the week then i update one what. yeah, they'll only pick one to go in finals. thats why i don't like it that so many ppl are joining. so stressful...
[gregory]: oh realli? i guess the main reason why they do that is bcoz the no of votes these days are dipping dipping dipping. and why u NOT WATCHING dreamgirls!!!!

TOP 12 GIRLS [going by rank instead of order of performance, beginning with the worst]:
Antonella Barba - "I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing" - bleargh. looks so pretty, but singing was disappointing. very disappointing. breathing points was all over the place, mostly flat throughout the song. nervous and found it very hard to link phrases. rather pitchy, and song selection's definitely a huge problem. song was way too big for her. 6

Amy Krebs - "I Can't Make You Love Me" - just an average ballad performance. dynamics was well controlled, but certain pitches in phrasing were apparant. vocally a strong singer, but chose a song that's way too boring, and too safe. the r&b feel she once had is gone. a very forgettable personality, like a candle. 6.5

Alaina Alexander - "Brass In Pocket" - restricted vocal range. have certain nice slurs in the song. bubbly, pretty but struggled at high notes and started sounding hoarse, eventually resorting to shouting. unoriginal, and doesn't have the oomph. ironic when the words she sang were 'i'm special' - 6.5

Nicole Tranquillo - "Stay" - Nasal tone. has a mellow tone to her singing, resembles a mellower Fantasia. personally felt it was a good song choice, and rather shocking. but judges thought it wasn't her vibe though she managed to reach unreachable notes. indulgent, aggressive, fake, over-rehearsed were the words Simon used to describe the performance. 6.5

Haley Scarnato - "It's all coming back to me now" - Very cabaret, though she's still talented. high range was limited, but she makes up for it with her vibrattos. Still sounds broadway, and more so old and boring. 7.0

Leslie Hunt - "(You Make Me Feel like a) Natural Woman" - choosing a Kelly Clarkson remake isn't that smart. has a good stage presence and her mellow controlled tone adds a distinctive flavor to the assortment of voices in the top 24. voice sounded stuck inside though. has a country feel to her performance, yet at the same time interestingly rough. song was too big for her and simon thought she felt embarassed. 7.5

Gina Glocksen - "All By Myself" - low notes were rather swallowed. but at least she attempted to pit herself against the vocally strong contestants. her high key was rather shaky and the build-up before it wasn't strong, so it didn't quite leave an impact. big voice, big song. but simon thought she didn't hit the big note. 8.0

Jordin Sparks - "Gimme One Reason" - Transition from the calm tone to a very high and vibrant feel was superb. very accurate pitching and managed to let it all out. considering her young age, she's a natural talent and no song is too big for her. 8.5

Stephanie Edwards - "How come you don't call me" - Very jazzy and sultry singer. has the whole Fantasia portfolio and image. like her growling sound and she sounds very mature. Strong conviction, with her kneeling down during the performance. One of her personal bests, and a good song choice. 8.5

Melinda Doolittle - "Since You Been Gone" - i got scammed. i tot it was kelly clarkson's song. but it wasn't. Nevertheless, she was a lively, cute, bouncy performer with a very Sister Nun aura around her. Very soulful and shes a very likeable person. Natural gift of her voice, she has adequate amount of confidence, and it's good that she keeps things real by letting her voice say it all. 8.5

Sabrina Sloan - "Never loved a man the way that i loved you" - A very defining moment for her. A very strong personality and she started off surprising everyone with her rapid octavial changes. great vocal range and she reminds me of leona lewis, very similiar image. the transition from low to high was technically superb and she set the benchmark for the rest. got a standing ovation. 9.0

Lakisha Jones - "And i'm telling you i'm not going" - i wrote this in my notebook.
OH MY GOD. no comments. speechless. its just the pinnacle of what you can imagine. lets see if she can keep it up for the subsequent weeks and garner public support. 10.o

there are many upcoming things i'm looking forward to...

• campus superstar (estimated 20 ppl from RI are joining, which gets rather frustrating. coz it cuts my chances down of getting in. ahhhh)
• SYF
• Leaders in Action Workshop this saturday (will interact with other schools yay!!!)
• some exchange talk with rgs (not sure abt the details yet, but mr yap approached me)
• ri ge rock band? (hope to do it again to make 'singaporeans' proud)
• song-writing competition (kelly and jon gan asking me, so must pwnz if we join. and maybe then i get discovered HAHA. ok ignore that.)

i'm gettin unsure as to where my priorities lie now. music or leadership duties or studies? its really during these moments that i think great leaders are indeed great because they can juggle everything so well, be it doing well in a maths test or excelling in sports or initiating new agendas. guess i need to find a balance.

and ms cho surprised me by asking 'how was my dad' today. she said she came across my blog hehe. so from now onwards, no more crap on my blog and controversial stuff. I SHALL BE A POLITICALLY CORRECT boy with politically acceptable comments which will be well-received under public scrutiny, be it students or teachers or outsiders or even my parents. MAYBE i should blog less often. coz from my hit counter, i've received an avg of 48 hits per day since last month.

im' worried for beyonce all over again. she released this new single 'World Wide Woman' from her new Deja Vu album rereleased, which sounds horrendous. back to her 'deja vu-cum-ring the alarm' days.
will be updating performance evaluation for the top 12 girls later on!

Rudy Cardenas: "Free Ride" - good stage presence. great vocal range, with good pitching. a blast considering it's the first performance of the season. prenounciation sounded a bit weird though. despite being very lively, judges criticized the performance for not being distinctive. 7.0

Brandon Rogers:"Rock With You" - holding notes rather strong, technically good, however lacks stage presence, many moments of silence. pitchy, and attempted to do too much. safe, predictable, and hardly has impact. 6.5

Sundance Head: "Nights in White Satin" - sounded like a getai singer, pronouncing 'you' as 'yohhh'. bluesy feel he once had was gone. very pitchy, and had a weird tone, perhaps owing to wrong song choice. rough introduction, very old-fashioned. deemed the next 'scott savol', the one everyone who would want to see get eliminated but probably stays in the competition for a longer-than-expected duration. 5.5

Paul Kim: "Careless Whisper" - doesn't wear shoes during performances. had a rather bad falsetto, pitchy. was polite in addressing judges (Mr. Jackson), and stiff. judges see the potential in him but Simon deems the performance as a third-grade rendition and advises him to put his shoes on. 6.0

Chris Richardson: "I Don't Want to Be" - finally a song I know and like. Very unique rendition with his personal touch of the change in tune. very vibrant, has a great stage presence, though his outfit resembles that of Justin Timberlake. with the different flavor he added in the song, it definitely exploits his soulfulness, though Simon says it wasn't vocally impressive. 7.5

Nicholas Pedro: "Now and Forever" - Has a raspy, airy R&B tone in his voice. Simon thinks it's good, though the two judges thought he lost his spark halfway during the performance probably due to nervousness. neverthless, a charming person. 6.5

Blake Lewis: "Somewhere Only We Know" - handsome dude, has a surname that sounds like my name. someone whom i see as a possible contender for the title. Sang a Keane song which is very unexpectedly, considering Keane's from UK. Not only a beatboxer, he also sings with a very clear voice. Falsetto came out very strong and he remained cool. unique personality. 7.5

Sanjaya Malakar: "Knocks Me Off My Feet" - really got knocked off his feet. Chose a Stevie Wonder song, which can't be attempted. has a clear and jazzy voice, however song was too big for him. Like what Simon said, the lyrics clearly fitted the context. "I don't want to bore you with this." Perhaps due to inexperience, resulting him being very nervous and pitchy. 5.5

Chris Sligh: "Typical" - A very powerful and strong singer. though used a lot of throat voice and shouting, he still managed to engage the audience with his strong stage presence and good song choice. A fantastic personality, believe he can go far in the competition. 7.5

Jared Cotter: "Back at One" - Rather daring to choose a Brian McKnight song. Sounded rather similiar to the original singer, but has a very solid and strong falsetto. ending was abrupt. judges thought it was unadventurous and Simon thinks he has a nasal tone. Look good, but forgettable. 7.0

A.J. Tabaldo: "Never Too Much" - Rhythmic song, very upbeat, brought the house alive. Vocally strong and has good body gestures/expressions. Has his own personal style, but judges think it's just average. Simon thought it was predictable and resembled a theme park performance. 7.0

Phil Stacey: "I Could Not Ask For More" - Ended the night with a big bang. Was able to connect with the audience, and i loved his transition to the rock-edge version. Powerhouse vocals. Though beginning was shaky, managed to make it up by opening himself to the audience. Ryan Seacrest said Phil's hairstyle was like Britney's new haircut. so bloody insensitive. 8.0

(those in RED BOLD SCORES indicate the 4 ppl i think will have a risk of gettin eliminated. but my bet is on sanjaya and paul to get the boot)

Thought the guys were rather disappointing on a whole. There wasn't really anyone who caught me straigthaway by attention. Last season there was Chris Daughtry. Season 4 there was Mario Vazquez. really need to see something fresh, and thats why i thought chris sligh was very oustanding, not only due to his hair, but his ability to engage with the audience. thats why i fully agree with simon that he was rather honest on his criticism towards the contestants.

----i think i'm very free to actually comment on all these. LOL.

today was a rather lax day, other than the fact that i scored 32% for maths test. but heard that ahho scored 7-half, making it a consolation for me.

psgm finale was sweet. somehow these days i can't differentitate the 1C ppl from the 1F people, probably due to e fact that i spent so much time with both sides, and some of them from each class are from choir, adding to the confusion. but nevertheless, it has been a great 8 weeks spent with them, and i hope they'll still remember me in times to come!

choir whereas was another of those headache days. good news was that i did well for auditions (so to speak, judging from the comments my sectionmates gave --> and they are reliable sources). tot could perhaps improve on my breathing more, coz sometimes i have NO MORE BREATH to emphasize on phrasing. after combined, had exco meeting.

a very fascinating thing about this EXCO is that we tend to come up with a lot of new initiatives and ideas, and it all seems very appealing. but people still don't understand the practicality of implementing such things. worst still, adding the fact that some ppl in the exco don't even seek approval from the other exco members and immediately lay the proposal in front of our conductor MAKES IT even more frustrating for everyone.

many of us are kept out of the loop, and even i as the vice-chair don't feel like i'm the vice-chair at times. some ppl are just overambitious and are so hard on trying to prove themselves worthy of their positions. sometimes it's good to just collaborate with each other, come up with ideas, accept feedback and reflect on our proposal, rather than being so damn firm on yr idea and think everything else is wrong. because of that, often or not we end up squabbling over the littlest things. hope things can improve and our working relationship won't be badly affected by all these. being a leader, we need to be able to delegate tasks, and not just bear all responsibility on your own shoulder, and leave others wondering what's going on.

on an ending note, i'd like to remind everyone that campus audition is on march 16. SOMEHOW THOUGH, some people INSIST that they have passed to the second round of campus audition which makes utterly NO SENSE. thank you.

ok. before it sounds like i'm about to die of depression or something, i'd just like to thank all those who expressed yr concern. my dad's ok now. thank god it wasn't serious internal bleeding. doc says its just a small nerve vessel in the brain which burst, resulting in his headaches and vomiting. right now, the problems and symptoms have persisted, so he's resting at home now.
and i'm alright guys. don't make it sound so grave!!!!! haha.

anyway, just watched arena. gotta tell you, i love the loyang last speaker. the way she talks and her character's soooooo feisty!! just give me a littttle litttle litttle litttle bit of her spunk and i'll have even better stage presence (ok that doesn't link, but never mind.)

was checking my email and i saw this.
RInform. There are no major events or sports finals this week, as it is a relatively short week with only 3 days.We wish you a good week ahead.

ok thank you, i have been informed. thank you kaushik. but i agree with RInform, simply due to the fact that i'm UBER FREE for this week too. i must make myself available on friday after school to watch Dreamgirls with alaric they all. and on saturday, i got this leaders' workshop thing at SMU. sian.

and may i ask WHO DO I LOOK FOR if i wanna deejay in school? its gettin frustrating. tomorrow will be a very sick day, looking at how my classmates and teachers will either snigger at me or console me. i'll be freaking embarassed i tell you.

24 more days. (no, i'm not counting down to my birthday, which is in 12 days' time. rather i'm counting about something else)

today's cny celebrations started on a happy note, but ended with a series of grave and worrying events.


god bless my family. dad, take care. we'll always be behind you.

CNY DAY 1.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE! i still think the year of the pig sounds rather corny.

my mum wasn't in the photo coz she was TAKING the photo. haha.
and i've received 39 smses of well-wishes till now. i feel so blessed. thanks guys. love ya always!!

today was the most emotional day i've had in years.

thanks to all those who have given me encouragement and support even after i broke down. ms cho, lionel, bryan, ms cai, yuzhou, wenjian, yansheng, minzhe, sadikin, daniel cheong, kelvin, marvin, jon gan and many many more who have contributed towards buckley's cny.

as i was taking the bus on the way home, i thought of how we lost out to other houses, rather than thinking of why did the other houses beat us. we lost due to one very simple fact: that our chereo didn't quite match the standards set by other houses.

mistakes in dancing and chereo can be very easily spotted when committed. the body language and everything's very important. hence, being the last house to perform, we had extra pressure of doing above par comparing us with the other houses. granted the fact we did well in performing our very own song compositino, the judges couldn't recognize the fact that we painstakingly COMPOSED our very own song and got our very own band, something that requires much manpower and time. furthermore, we have to syncronize the band performance with the dancing sequence, hence the added complications.

the fact that we could pull it off all so well was something i thought deserved to be recognized. we really didn't expect to get a 5th, and that was why i just lost it after the 'chuan deng' section (which i didn't even lip-synch to) and burst into tears.

looking back at all this, we all knew deep in our hearts that we did our best and that there was no erroneous mistake that couldn't be forgiven. we just loss out on the rubric and that was what mattered. our process was fabulous, the lower sec and upper sec buckleyans were fiery with passion, one we haven't seen in years.

as an individual, i believe i have growned in terms of stage presence, even with audience rapport. i have become more confident and i'm willing to show my true self on stage. i moved around; i sang in key, i did everything that was required of a good performance. we pulled off something many cannot accomplish, and thats why i was so disappointed when the results wasn't a true reflection of the effort put in by us.

i'm someone who's competitive in nature and i don't want to lose. once i lose, i feel responsible for it and thats why i'm so hard on myself. and its all these mounting pressure that i can't consume any more of it after a few blows dealt and thus i just break down.

nevertheless, i believe buckley has made an impact on people today. we have proved to others that we are able to get out of last place, and that even though we got fifth in the upper sec category, we lost gracefully and some people even thought we didn't deserve to get only that position. thank you everyone for having faith in us.

buckley shall this keep passion burning and with this strong spirit, we'll pull out of last place.


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choir mock auditions started on a rough note for me, for i was still suffering the repercussions of the talentime results. started off with a score of 11 (3,3,2.5,2.5 -- rhythm, tone, pitch, dynamics) out of a possible 16 for my first audition. after i reflected on where we gone wrong and how the results were just a form of reward, i cheered up and got 13.5. =)

feels kinda empty when i'm not going back my primary school, neither am i going out with my friends, because i have choir, and most importantly BECAUSE I DIDN'T BRING ALONG MY PHONE THIS MORNING. and that feeling stinks.

Week 8 (12th-18th Feb 2007)

1) Listen - Beyonce
2) Girlfriend – Avril Lavigne
3) Candyman – Christina Aguilera
4) Star Girl – McFly
5) The Sweet Escape – Gwen Stefani feat. Akon
6) Littlest things – Lily Allen
7) Over it – Katherine McPhee
8) Wasted – Carrie Underwood
9) We’re all in this together – High School Musical
10) Read my mind – The Killers
11) Leave the pieces – The Wreckers
12) It’s not over – Chris Daughtry
13) Rehab – Amy Winehouse
14) Knights of Cydonia – Muse
15) A moment like this – Leona Lewis
16) This ain’t a scene, it’s an arms race – Fall Out Boy
17) The pieces don’t fit anymore – James Morrison
18) Chick fit – All Saints
19) Snow (Hey Oh) – Red Hot Chilli Peppers
20) Red, white and blue – Brian McKnight & Rascal Flatts

Bubbling under:
Sweet Sacrifice – Evanescence
My, Oh My – The Wreckers
Red High Heels – Kellie Pickler

singaporean is still reading my blog. incredible. one more post from you and i'll jolly well address you by your name.

nevertheless, wishing all houses the best of luck tomorrow. expecting a great show and a great year ahead.

to singaporean: who says i have a loserdom life. take a gun and aim it at your mouth.

thanks guys for those tags. i believe it made the 'singaporean' feel as though he's losing by ten folds in this one-sided battle. before he sinks into depression, let's prevent from exposing him to excessive humiliation and put an end to this. =)

moving on to the bigger things in life...
today was a rather emotional day, and its just the build up of events that acts as a transition to the hectic two days ahead. once again, buckley ppl met up in the hall for upper sec rehearsal, and apparently the only other house present was hullett.

after hours of waiting, and i literally mean hours, inclusive of yetsrday's waiting time = 4 hours, WE DIDN'T GET TO PERFORM! if the organizational comm or whoever in charge was more abiding to the '5-minute-per-group-soundcheck', we could've performed today. some of the teachers didn't empathize with us and were in fact rather overbearing and arrogant. we had to tolerate their politically-polite rantings before we actually took the last straw and decided to let ms cho settle the rest. ms cho the bomb!!!

it was because of that i felt as though i wasted the time of the buckleyans, who came down despite their busy schedules and ended up waiting to no avail. so sorry guys if it took up your time. but i believe, with tomorrow's practice and booking at the hall, we'll be able to put off a fantastic performance on friday.

keep that faith going on.

"I don't know why are the boys so serious for the Chinese New Year Performance." - Dr Chionh

to singaporean, if you hadn't noticed, perhaps everyone in my blog is against you. for firstly, you don't make any sense, and secondly you need a whole chain of arguments to elaborate just one point, that singaporeans are good in sports but not in the music industry.
firstly, i'd like to clarify that i didn't even hold any grudges against the sportsmen in singapore. in fact, we have personalities like joscelin yeo and etc who have done us proud. FURTHERMORE, i was targetting the SPORTS SCENE AS A WHOLE. i was merely commenting about the singapore soccer team and that they, with their immense amounts of budgets, should be able to reach beyond the asean region, or whatever you call that.

and the saddest thing is that, you know i was ousted from arena, meaning that you'd personally know me. either you're just jealous or something.

"just find someone from singapore who can succeed REGIONALLY first before you start saying that singapore should go the arts way."
like... HELLO??? since when did i say singapore should go the arts way. i didn't explicitly state that. thank you. and fyi, we have regional artistes like stefanie sun, jj lin and many many more. ho yeow sun even got a dance track which peaked at #1 on the billboard. so think about it, shallow boy with some serious shallow knowledge.
singapore hasn't won an olympic medal since yonders ago, and thats my point. the fact that we are such a small country means that our talent is limited. whereas, in the arts scene, we're still able to achieve something in the music industry internationally.

why don't you tell me what the sportsmen have accomplished then. AND, most importantly, put your real name instead of singaporean. i had enough of talking to an anonymous person, and by not daring to put yr real name, it goes to show that you don't really have an objective view the issue.

as i watched some of the rehearsals of the houses for cny, i began to be apprehensive of our chances of getting a top three finish, not to even say win it.

i was so confident initially, because we composed our own song, we added our own lyrics, we chereographed our own dance. perhaps its because we did everything on our own, and that's why i felt a sense of accomplishment and gratification. we even have a band to go along with it, adding much more to the atmosphere on that day.

however, looking at the other houses practising their performance, with oh-so-boring songs from jay chou, help from external dance instructors (some adults, and one peicai sec girl), as well as gigantic humongous props, i started to get paranoid and thought we needed something extra. that extra factor. creativity you might say? we were creative enough to think of our own chereo moves and were creative enough to compose a song with lyrics in such a short amount of time.

from the bottom of my heart, i think we'll score in the 'song' aspect, having composed our VERY OWN songs.

but the matter of fact is that, chereography stands for 40% of the judging, and looking at the situation right now, with everyone having their own professional instructor, buckley is left stranded, with only kelvin and the rest of us bearing the burden of having to teach the lower sec dance moves, as well as coordinate our very own upper sec.

indeed, judges should have made guidelines clear that no external help should be seeked. but well, it was their part that they omitted that, and it was our fault and something we overlooked that we didn't get external help. nevertheless, i hope judges follow the rubric of song/dance/costume, and NO MARKS to be awarded to skits. ZERO.

all in all, i hope that we can pull this off and achieve really great results for buckley. its more than just winning, its the reputation we have negatively built over the few past years. and its a reputation i want to get rid of before i leave for rj. we have worked hard for this talentime, and i finally feel the fire for buckley. to be honest, i had enough of losing.

wishing all those attached couples, genuine or fake, a very happy valentine's day. may your relationships blossom and last.

>>>>>> Just look at that tagboard and see what utter nonsense someone by the name of 'singaporean' was blabbering (inclusive of his earlier messagse). apparently, he hasn't got the slightest clue what life is about and only wants to make his life a sob story, filled with pessismism and sees my blog as a very interesting spot of targetting his anger, or i should say, stupidity.

generalizing choir people as gay boys is just a dimwitted comment of yours and you got no clue what choir is all about. its equivalent to saying that you're from a sports cca and thus, you sing like william hung and you think 'twinkle twinkle little star' is the best song in the history of mankind.

i concede to the fact that singapore was good in winning the asean championship, but did i say anything about them being losers? what i just said was that they could only 'roar' and that the project superstars could sing dance and mesmorize. it was supposed to be targetted at the advertisement campaigning of the show, and not targetted at whatever you thought i was targettin at, fool.

and to find someone who can sing as well as carrie underwood or chris daughtry is possible in singapore. just that your shallow trains of thought allow you to think that you're the best singer in the world (if you believe so) and that we can't find a single talent in the entertainment industry in the region. you said, "so even if we talk regional, you think anyone could compare to gary cao ge?". just for your information, gary cao ge is a malaysian, and yes, he lives within the region. hence, its possible we can find another of such a singer within a region. so i repeat: YOUR argument makes entirely no sense. and furthermore, some regional singers came from their school choirs. does that go to show that everyone from choir are gay?

"well if you're so manly, why aren't you in a sports cca my dear deluded friend?" to this dumb blonde bombshell statement which holds no weight, all i got to say is that not all sports people are deemed as sporty as they might seem to be. someone from musical groups, uniformed groups people are in fact, better in sports, and more athletic. i really wonder who's the delusionized one over here, fellow 'singaporean'.

in conclusion, what i want you to know is that you have offended people in uniformed groups, people in musical groups, the entertainment industry, and it just goes to show how narrow your scope of thinking is. you really need to get a life, instead of trying to rebut me in my tagboard. debating with me is not a smart choice. its a shame you put 'singaporean' as your nickname, cause obviously you don't represent any singaporean. so get lost, and whine about yr miserable life to yourself.

goodbye.

i have to have to have to comment on the first episode of fiji.
fabulous.
the fact that they are able to come up with new twists and new plots and new everything goes to show that survivor should have more than 18 seasons.
not only are there 5 asians in this season, the asians are all rather sane. they even unanimously mutually agreed that the asian architect sylvia, split the 18 ppl into 2 tribes, and she was the one who made all the decisions. i finally feel proud that the asian community has been justified and the perception has been rectified, ever since yul kwon won. =)
amazing race starts next week, would really love to see a twist. though there aren't many twists, the whole essence of the show still remains and thats why it still remains such a hit.

ok i deleted the second try for k ge zhi wang. found it was a lil too pitchy. haha. now wenjian,yuzhou, dylan and kelly practising cny chereo dance at my house. i think we should dance to 'audition' songs, coz the dance moves are darn cool. or rather, i'd wanna dance with barbbbie. turns out that we were playing with barbie.

clockwise from top. TOP duh: Me, yuzhou, wenjian, dylieee.

1) Littlest Things - Lily Allen
2) Girlfriend - Avril Lavigne
3) The Sweet Escape - Gwen Stefani feat. Akon
4) It's not Over - Chris Daughtry
5) Rehab - Amy Winehouse
6) This ain't a scene, it's an arms race - Fall Out Boy
7) The pieces don't fit anymore - James Morrison
8) We're all in this together - High School Musical
9) Knights of Cydonia - Muse
10) Leave the pieces - The Wreckers
11) Love it when you call - The Feeling
12) Snow (Hey Oh) - Red Hot Chilli Peppers
13) Chick Fit - All Saints
14) Listen - Beyonce
15) Red, white and blue - Brian Mcknight feat. Rascal Flatts
16) A moment like this - Leona Lewis
17) Thinking about you - Norah Jones
18) Ride for you - Danity Kane
19) What goes around - Justin Timberlake
20) Starlight - Muse

something stupid happened yesterday. lionel and i were at pastamania. then, lionel's hp rang. he answered then i heard him say some words like 'isaac....chinese....bryan.....cny....caiying hua'. then, he passed the phone to me and said 'cai ying hua wants to speak to you'.
so, i picked up his phone. with my mouth half full with ice lemon tea, and i said this:

i learnt a lot about people today.

i learnt that as our final year approaches, some students get so caught up within their studies they really lack some basic social skills. they can't even exchange a simple greeting with you as we pass each other along the corridors.

some people try to seek attention and crack jokes at the expanse of insulting others, especially in the case of 4j. name-calling is rather rampant in our class already, and many people, including me, have been made the targets of their crap-shit antics, which they deem is FUNNY. move on, mature people. its incredible to think that some of these insensitive people are actually leaders! leaders who have big big big responsibilities. respect people before they can actually respect you. if you don't even have the basic respect of respecting people's property (i.e tearing people's paper placed on the noticeboard), i think theres some serious area for growing up.

some people think their so wholly BIG and BIG literally that they only give their exclusitivies to a certain group of people. they think that they are the only ones who know everything. some, on the other hand, are just pure lazy. even if its a small piece of work, they just sit there and sleep. i applaud these people. some teachers even, are getting rather ridiculous in their punishments and demands. i don't really like it when teachers reprimand/blame me for something which i shouldn't EVEN be involved in. and to threaten me to sing at the atrium is a ridicule taken one step further.

i understand it's the final year. but we just need to chill, lead a happy life and move on. venting your anger/frustration on other people won't do you any good. it'll bring you nowhere, even if you get a 4.0.

i miss 2B. i really really do. the tight bonding we have and the strong identity i'm attached to. i don't feel that i belong in my class now. i really don't. i've tried to brush away this thought, but it still sticks with me.

nevertheless, i still have great friends right now. true friends who still stick with me and we share our bitchy moments and our swan moments and our sad moments and our reflective moments. thank you guys, and lets end this year with a bang. for those who have changed drastically since sec 2, find your true self. its never too late. i guess i need to orientate myself over these next few weeks too. its ironic that while many people would love to stay in ri for two more years, i'd really wish to go to rj now.

right now, i'm going to practise don't cry for me argentina. thanks to nicholas hsien for 'accidentally' reminding mrs albar about our performance, which lionel and i shouldn't even have performed. THANKS SO MUCH. i owe you one. or rather, you owe me one.
thanks lionel and isaac for the shopping spree today. lionel i owe you $68.00. =-

gosh, mrs albar wants us to sing that song tomorrow. crazy.
spent the whole lunch today advising lionel not to quit third lang. and here, i repeat again:
Don't quit third lang NOW because you'd have wasted 3 years for nothingggg. its just one more year to pull through.
speaking of third lang, there's this system of wearing your LANYARD when you go to moelc, as implemented by the rules (according to what the security guard said). like hello..... why would we actually need to be identified as MOELC students. i don't see the rationale behind wearing that lor. firstly, we students can't be terrorists. secondly, only wuliao people would come to third lang centre for no rhyme or reason. lastly, people can wear lanyards of other 3rd languages.
with regards to cny performances, i had a sneak peek of morrison's and moor's skit and dance respectively. morrison's skit looks rather interesting, really want to see it,. its either they make it big time or break it even bigger time. moor was like dancing to 'can't help falling in love'. like, it's an english song and we're celebrating a chinese festival? -.-
anywayyy...next week's really gettin hectic as i'm browsing through my organizer. madness. i'm going mad.

days after days... geog lessons seem to be the same.
"boys, today we are going to discuss the key understanding on ________"
the next day...
"boys, today we are going to discuss the key understanding on _________"
and yes, it is all the same topics.

having to spend almost half of my whole day in class listening to such things can be torturous. right now, i only find maths and english interesting. at least for maths, i'm kept occupied. though i freaking got a 1.5/7 for my circular measure ta, thanks to some misinterpretations on my diagram.

oh, and ms kek wrote this on my worksheet: "Good work, Kek it up" no pun intended. you can come see my worksheet. she really wrote that.

philo lesson has got to be the lamest lesson in the world right now, other than the unnecessary insult-hurling and name-calling (esp from some ppl in the class) amongst some people. i think our teacher hasn't done much up till now. in fact today, alaric talked more than him. all he had to say was "does the other group have any comments? do you guys have any questions? there's still more time, do you guys want to talk about something else? thank you."

and obviously, the ever enthusiastic xiaoxiao will come up with qusetions that will crack your brain because they contain mathematical probability and calculations which can't really be deciphered by everyone. like what mrs albar said, mathematics can bring you nowhere. i fully agree with this statement 1000000%.

when i reached home, i was sooooo pissed with the fact that channel 5 actually swopped the AMERICAN IDOL TIMING with THE DANCE FLOOR. like HELLO? can you just put dance floor at sunday instead? so from now on, i have pledged not to watch a single episode of the dance floor and i'm going to watch idol on star world.

oh, and next week's gonna be a busy busy busy week:
Monday: Maths Test
Tuesday: Geography Assignment
Wednesday: Total Defence Full-Dress Rehearsal/ CNY Rehearsal
Thursday: Emcee Total Defence Day Commemoration
Friday: Chinese New Year Talentime Competition. <-- relatively pivotal to whether i'll join campus superstar or not. (but looking at how some ppl from our batch, with absolutely little talent, are joining, i believe i can join too.) rmb <-- this is singing, not ACTING! *sniggers*

today had rehearsal for total defence again...

choir was fun! kinda interesting how i have to simplify all the musical terms to explain it simply to the new sec 1s. they're like totally flustered at this point in time. gotta go thru pitching, rhythm with them till it gets you quite nerved.

then our relief teacher was recounting all his army experiences with us. it sounded rather overwhelming. scaryyy, to think that army life is only 2 years away.
some teachers need to loosen up. meaning they need to shout lesser, scream lesser, think rationally and BE CREATIVE. think out of the box and be UNCONVENTIONAL!! coz, if i have 5 boring academic lessons in a row, it can be a tow.

and school life is getting fun. when you get to meet the people you think of meeting. its like
F-A-T-E.
'if you depend on this textbook, also very limiting' - dr chionh.

somehow i'm gettin quite freaked out with proj superstar finals as i'm blogging. whats with all the synthesized techno voices which the finalists emulate to lip-synch? like hello, they are in the top 24, THEY CAN SING. they shouldn't lip-synch. furthermore, THEY SHOULDN'T SING CHEESY SONGS and disgusting act-cutesy songs which are so so so contrived.
they didn't even announce the number of cds daren and diya sold. they just said 60-40. like WHAT?? and that accounts for 30% of the results????
and i don't really like the disgusting filming material mediacorp uses for their performances. it looks so pathetic.
daren beats diya 5-0 in 1st round. hope for a miracle now.

isaac, alaric, lionel and me!

i screwed up my circular measure ta. i screwed up my circular measure ta. i screwed up my circular measure ta. i screwed up my circular measure ta. i screwed up my circular measure ta. i screwed up my circular measure ta. i screwed up my circular measure ta. i screwed up my circular measure ta. i screwed up my circular measure ta. i screwed up my circular measure ta.

ERGH.die lah. at most 2/7 already. i sooo wanted to pass every single TA this year, and looks like my resolution has been ruined. burst. maths back to 3.2. die die die, and what makes the world even more topsy-turvy is that ryan got 16/20 for his chem oba OMG. incredible unbelievable nonsensical!

eeyerh i get frustrated and puzzled when ppl get pissed with me for no reason and start ignoring me. like wahlao, gimme a break can. although i'm like immune to you pinching me already but dun ignore me as though i'm invisible like that can or not. can?? =) we so long friends already then sometimes u still dao me like that, i get very sad and confused you know. hmph.

speaking of which, i'm starting to talk to the dude who seats beside me in class. although i still dun get justin's weird paper antics, i think he's a really nice and concerned guy. at least, he is who he is and hes very sincere. =)))

today our msp teacher said we wno't be taking 'o' levels for malay and we can't even appeal to take cos we're from ri. like what?!?! that's totally nonsense. we can't even register as private candidates you know. and i start to wonder: 4 years learning malay without even gettin a formal certificiate? that'll be rather RATHER disappointing and a huge huge waste of my time.

haha, and everyone, be jealous, coz justin liu's treating us cafe cartel tomorrow!!! i'm like sooo looking foward to it wahahah. i shall order till he goes broke.