started busy day with swami cip at sembawang (wenjian's project, along with chenxuan and mingzhe and arif). lionel, reynard and i were in charge of games stall (BLACKJACK to be exact). i got really pissed but at the same time i had to put on a smile XD. coz apparently, whenever i played with the less fortunate people, i had to purposely BURST my perfect set of 21 points. There was this scenario where i had (Q,Q) = 20 points. then i wanted to bust on purpose. when i took the card, i got an ACE. and this happend TWICE.
well, thats what CIP is all about, to make someone's day, not YOUR day. and wenjian, you guys did a gr8 job on the mural painting thing. really cool looking omg.

oh my god. call me biased or what. but dramafeste was fun. i really thought morrison's play was goodgoodgoodgoodgoodgoodgoodgoodgoodgoodgood (but hullett edged them out for the winner. buckley got 5th) i didn't know karliang could act so well haha. and senghenk too. totally hilarious. and wenjun finally acting as a guy!! really nice storyline about how the son does not listen to his father who once experienced the same fate as him and after he dies, returns to heaven trying to persuade his son but fails to do so and all the hustlebustle makes everyone go mad when instead everyone should be enjoying a good life but it all gets confusing and BURST. i liked that effect where everyone was hovering around karliang mumbling the words. how cool is that. bayley's one wasn't as impressive, but still a good job (they got 4th) after that went ajisen with bryan,alaric and mingzhe (who took volcano ramen. 4 chillis that one) then went home.
and that concludes my hectic play/concert/ movie schedule for the month of july. 8 of such events i've gone to to be exact.

Raffles Voices - Keeping the Dream Alive. Nanyang Girls' High Choir - Cosi Bello. Raffles Girls School (Secondary) Guitar Ensemble - Reverbere. Choral Festival X. Raffles Institution Militar Band - Prometheum X. Chinese High English Drama Club - Army Daze. The Lake House. Raffles Intstitution Interhouse Drama Feste.
and how i love the subsequent suppers.

The month of August awaits!

lake house: one of the best movies i've ever watched this year.
unrealistic it may seem, and the trailer might not seem impressive, but its truly not as shallow as hopeless as what it seems to be. its about true love, and despite them living 2 years apart, they can still find opportunities to meet each other and most importantly, they must try to unravel the mystery behind their extraordinary romance before it's too late. be patient and wait is what they say. a must-watch.

next was 'army daze'. a HCI EL drama production. b4 tt met with yan and cass and chennie at kap (which is like my very common place to eat nowadays after plays/concerts). caught up with adeline and aaron and qianwei. happend to meet ppl i've never seen in a gazillion years (jiahao and khangwen). well, not as good as rgs drama's play, but still commendable, with some very outstanding characters in the cast, including kenny, this guy who acted as a sissy, and he really pulled it off. kudos to you!

just came back from SWAMI, this CIP project we went to for volunteering services. was in charge of games stall and the blackjack part was hilarious. i kept having 21 points (3 cases of Q,Q,Ace) budden i have to give in to the elderly who didn't even know how to play and were so not interested. then i had to put on a XD smile HAHA. really tiring to smile all the way ok.

1) Gallery - Mario Vazquez
2) Sexyback - Justin Timberlake
3) These walls - Teddy Gegier
4) Girl next door - Saving Jane
5) No tomorrow - Orson
6) I'm not missing you - Stacie Orrico
7) Too Little too late - JoJo
8) Inside of you - Hoobastank
9) Waiting for the world to change - John mayer
10) The riddle (You and I) - Five for fighting
11) Boston - Augustana
12) Stars are blind - Paris Hilton
13) A public affair - Jessica Simpson
14) Say goodnight - The Click Five
15) Invisible - Ashlee Simpson
16) Ain't no other man -Christina Aguilera
17) Life is wonderful - Jas0n Mraz
18) I wish i was a punk rocker - Sandi Thom
19) Deja vu - Beyonce
20) Life is a highway - Rascal Flatts

what a pity emilee is out. i thought she was the only contestant which had significant improvement. but well, maybe its all the bad karma in her first few weeks that cannot be contained anymore and had to explode the words 'elimination'. one thing good is that rahimah and jasmine (esp jasmine) are in bottom 3. can knock their heads and wake up their ideas on song choices.

well, didn't say much abt karaoke yesterday. thought there was not much to post about it after all i didn't win anything and basically screwed up. well, just wait for next year and choose a higher pitched song by then.

and today i'm particularly pissed with the way this person handles things, and he actually criticizied my way of doing things. THANKS. but i'll still remain a happy person.

i think jazz shouldn't be one of the themes in singapore idol. firstly, its hardly appreciated by majority of singaporeans. secondly, its something which many of the contestants have not heard or tried singing before (as many of them have said)

Band 1: Mathilda, Hady, Jonathan
mathilda once again. powerhouse vocals, impressive. hady never failed to deliver also with his steady vocals. but they said he didn't inspire. hey, u can't possibly inspire me now right. jonathan did well again, very strong and capitvating. i just realized hady and jonathan live around clementi!
Band 2: Paul, Jay, Emilee, Rahimah
paul captured jazz, improved vocally compared to last week. jay i thought did pretty well, but judges didnt really like it. they tot it was technically perfect, but no emotions. enjoyable what. emilee is slowly improving in voice quality again. however, that stick really was irritating and did not connect with the band. rahimah was one of my personal favorites tonight but judges also didn't like it. tot they were too strict. she chose a nice song what. she made it her own.
Band 3: Joakim, Jasmine, Nurul
well, joakim will always remain in the bottom band. but with so many fans, it'll take a lONG LONG LONG LONG time for him to be in bottom 3. jasmine too. and they are both vocally very weak. but well. nurul is on the other hand. shes technically and vocally strong, but what a pity, she doesn't have the fanbase.
Predicted bottom 3: Jay (out), Nurul, Jasmine - well, i think it will be between jay and nurul.

GREAT. I WANTED TO TYPE A MEANINGFUL ENTRY. I SPENT 1 HOUR ON IT. AND WHEN I CLICKED 'PUBLISH POST'. THEY SAID ERROR. AND EVERYTHING DISAPPEARED. SCREW THIS.

--very pissed and on the verge of crying
(if this post is successful, screw it)

summarize my points here:
1) lesser and lesser ppl in 2b lunch gatherings, which really very sad (will we be able to hold a class reunion chalet by then?) now its like me, wangye and wenjian only. yuzho uand chenghan eats at food court =(
2) my karaoke song choice is somewhat screwed (and dylan hasn't chosen one yet.) details: atrium @1530. to come down to lend your support!
3) bryan's scribblings (idol quotes, teachers quotes, and random quotes) on my notebooks gettin really interesting, especially during chinese lessons when you don't understand what the teacher is talking, other than the (sinker, thinker, pioneer).
4) cec council briefing powerpoint. apparently cec council needs a new head and asst head for cec council. would be cool if i can be. but well, its based on nomination. hope someone nominates me. haha. but i wouldn't mind being level rep once again.
5) some people are gettin really depressed nowadays they are going crazy. they don't know what they are doing.
6) alaric, get me dramafeste tickets!! i want it!!!

ok that is all i wanted to say in my failed attempt to blog my entry. but there was much more depth to the earlier post.

yesterday, when i was eating at the hawker centre, there was this table beside me with a couple, and a man. the couple dressed pretty decently, had their branded bags with them, and looked pretty well-to-do. the man, wore tattoos all over, wore this obiang golden necklace, and had this unkempt moustache. then, this old woman found a seat beside the couple and started showing them her jade necklace, pleading them to buy it from her at $100 because she needed to money to operate her hand. the couple, just ignored her and continued eating their fishball noodles, as though it was one of the best they've ever had. just as the old lady was about to leave, the man beside the couple, without any hesitant, took out a $10 note and passed it to the old lady.
tot i shared that with you. you really can't judge a book by its cover. the old lady didn't even dream of approaching that man.

today my latest philo discussion says "Should emotions be completely contained?"
first thing that came to my mind: "NO. what MEANING will there be to life then?"
but as the discussion slowly progressed, i truly wondered whether do we really need to have emotions in our life. are they really important? sometimes they are significant, sometimes emotions are just something that divert your attention.

some people whom i know (including myself) recently, get really emotional sometimes and just have a nervous breakdown and burst. then depression sets in. and you feel like the whole world is collapsing. sometimes you don't know why you're feeling that way, but yeah it happens. glad now it isn't happening to me, though now i always feel stony. speaking of which, nowadays during lunch outings, the number of 2b people is shrinking, shrinking, shrinking. i still rmb in january, we got to go in huge groups of like 12-14 people, and it was really noisy and bursting with life. now, its just like me, wenjian, wangye. chenghan and yuzhou went to eat at the food court. =.= and the rest, (3I people) go for lunch early coz they have a free last period. so its really very tragic to see this 2b tradition slowly fading. i don't even know if people will go for the class reunion chalet at the end of the year, which i'm thinking of planning around end november.

yesterday choir was totally kapoot. sectionals were hella funny, compared to bass. on the other hand, bass is much more serious and more things gets done. so well, pros and cons. and i'm still very VERY VERY uncomfortable singing sop. i really gotta change sectionals bro.

right now, i'm contemplating whether to continue malay in sec 4. but as what chriskwan said, JUST ONE MORE YEAR AND GET A CERTIFICATE. ok, maybe i'll hold on XD
chinese lessons are really very boring too. nowadays i'm like sleeping during chinese lessons. even a gr8 teacher wouldn't be able to save the lesson from boring stories in the textbook. somtimes it gets so moral education-like and so cliche, it so does not capture your attention. and so, i end up drawing pictures in my textbook, and bryanchia starts scribbling random stuff on my notebook (like karliang's all-seeing eye, sinker/leader/pioneer, and idol predictions as well as idol quotes HAHHA) <-- makes my notebook an enjoyable read.

and later, i have to do this CEC council briefing powerpoint for the sec 3s. and they want to have nominations for head and asst head of cec council. i don't know, but i don't mind. yet at the same time, i don't know if i'm prepared for this. so SHOOT. if people nominate me, it means they have faith in me. if i don't get nominated, i'll well....be very sad. but it will be fun to see what happens.

and right now, i'm so going to prepare my karaoke song. i just realized i did a poor song choice. (and dylan is still desperately trying to find a song) so, if you guys wanna support me, please come to the atrium @ 1530!!! thanksyou!
and alaric, please try to get a dramafeste ticket for me. i'll be sad if you don't =(
oh my, i don't know what my life will be without emotions.

1) SexyBack - Justin Timberlake
2) I'm not missing you - Stacie Orrico
3) No Tomorrow - Orson
4) These Walls - Teddy Geiger
5) A Public Affair - Jessica Simpson
6) Gallery - Mario Vazquez
7) Stars are blind - Paris Hilton
8) Girl Next Door - Saving Jane
9) Boston - Augustana
10) Life is wonderful - Jason Mraz
11) Lifei s a highway - Rascal Flatts
12) Say goodnight - Click Five
13) Deja Vu - Beyonce
14) Ain't no other man - Christina Aguilera
15) Invisible - Ashlee Simpson
16) Chasing cars - Snow Patrol
17) Waiting on the world to change - John Mayer
18) I wish i was a punk rocker - Sandi Thom
19) Over my head - The Fray
20) Run - Snow Patrol

(Maneater is out of the charts after a long 8 weeks)

don't you tell me to go and die just beacuse i never wished you good luck.

went for RIMB prometheum concert (making it the 8th concert i attended this month). haa jiawei good job!!!! =D so nice to see all my friends performing on stage. the whole concert was pretty entertaining, louder than guitars, firmer than strings, fiercer than guzhengs, but still choir's the best.
after that, went supppper again with a different grp of ppl (ahho,jongan, daniel,cheeyang, mark 3b and his friend, who was on her phone from vch to lau pa sat. *applauses*) <-- that scenario wouldn't be happening to me though. i'll just talk nonstop! )

and jon gan, you better offer me a place in MY band. HAHAHA. if not i'll murder you.
anyway, DOES ANYONE want my trial dance lessons form. i'm willing to give it away. (see i so nice)

'GAYLE GO HOME' someone in the audience said.
how rude can some people get??
and when gayle was announced that she got the boot, the audienced CHEERED AND SCREAMED!!!
frankly speaking, i didn't really want her to leave that early? i thought she deserved to be top8 or sth. and frankly speaking, based on wednesdays performance, paul should've been out.
its just popularity. give norman paul's hairstyle and maybe norman will go even further HURHUR.

anyway, away from idol drama. choral fest yesterday was jampacked with ppl onstage and offstage. overall, it was really impressive, considering the fact that they prepared i think within a pretty short period of time, and to pull that off, kudos to them! special mention out to chris, jiajun (who knew each other like only at the end of their performance -.-), weiren, julian, linan, fried, geof, shuyun, diane and valerie. and thanks chris and gals for the supper hahaha.

and today, during cle, i did a splendid social suicide. they had this dance exposure programme, and i volunteered. besides doing a 720 degree-spin, i pretty much got trashed by leroy who did this cool break-stop hiphop funk thing. like GAHHH.

and FINALLY I AM HAPPY. i'm back to my normal crazy hyped up cuckoo self.

actually i feel quite sad for Superband contestants. everyweek, they have to compose and prepare a new song. yet they're not widely publicized. for singapore idol, u sing for less than 2 minutes. and u have roadshows almost everyday. how unjust is this world.
moving on.... i thought that the DJ's introductino to each song was pretty redundant. some of them OBVIOUSLY read it from the script and it was so unprepared. also, jacintha's judging is quite -.-

Grade A: Rahimah, Mathilda, Jonathan, Jay
Rahimah handled the song well, but pretty disorganized and disoriented at some parts, with occasional shoutings. Mathilda was marvellous, very funky, very daring (if she gets into bottom 3 again, it definitely tells us that she has no fanbase). Jonathan started pretty low, and ended yet on a high note. u have to accept that he has a low vocal range. hullo. Jay, on the other hand, excelled with his high range. technically superb, but no emotions yet again.

Grade B: Hady, Emilee, Nurul, Joakim
When i first watched hady's performances, i tot it was pretty dull and safe. after hearing the short preview clip of his performance, i tot he did VERY well. Emilee, also improved tremendously, though you can still hear the nasal voiceee. nurul improved too! now i like her. and i think she should go far, but u still can't erase the technical glitch saga away from her. thats her downfall. joakim today was pretty disappointing to be frank. but he still entertained me with his quirky dance moves. singing-wise, =.=

MY bottom 3: Gayle, Jasmine, Paul (which will so so so unlikely happen)
Gayle was like in this maze, and she was trying to find her way out. she resorted to screaming and shouting without any organization. Jasmine thinks by putting a flower on her hair, and trying to look sophiscated would get her far. she willl sail thru for the next 2 weeks, but the aura will wear off, my friend. totally off-pitch. paul was VERY disappointing too. what was that? singing or talking? jasmine and paul are overrated.

HOWever, my predicted bottom 3 are JAY, NURUL and GAYLE. Nurul out.

if i have disappointed you in any way, i'm sorry.
i've been through a lot recently too.
and if you think i'm having a nice life, u're absolutely wrong.

did i change?
have i changed?
will i change?

i don't know. have i become bolder? have i become more of an asshole? have i become smarter?
sometimes i think i speak up for the wrong reasons. sometimes i seek too much attention that in the end, everything goes topsy turvy for me and i get pretty screwed up. sometimes, i wished i was just a student in class that nobody notices. yet at the same time, i needed company, i wanted to talk to someone, irregardless whether it was pep talk or something serious. thank god there's still people who care for me, if not i don't know what i'll be today. but frankly speaking, i don't know what i am now. i was once hilarious, once funny, once the cheery jokerpoker who made everyone laugh. now i still do, but its just that i don't feel the same comfort, the same happiness.

well, apparently now i'm one of the 'WANTED' targets of this group of unruly students. just because i helped someone to stop getting bullied. just because i was stupid to misinterpret other people's intentions and yet be brave at the same time to approach higher authority. just because of that, i'm into all the shit that i'm not supposed to be in. and i know these people are finding me, but well, i just take it in my stride and after all, if they really do come after me, all i can do is take a video of it and they get expelled.

was that something noble? was that something brave? or was it plain stupidity.

THEN. after 2 and a half years singing bass in choir, i got 'promoted' to soprano 1 yetserday. i don't know whether i should be happy or sad, but i was really sad for a long period of time. not because i didn't like to be in soprano, butbecause of the times you once spent in bass ectionals, talking to people like lionel, weisheng, readon and linan, and now, its a whole new environment you're in, a whole new experinence. the thought of that made me tear somewhat. well, thats life. now i got to tell myself to move on, adapt to the new environment, take it as a personal challenge, and achieve something. i'll now work with new people, new everything. and this will really be a test for me.

right now, i should stay happy, continue being a busy boy, not care about other matters ANYMORE, and lead a peaceful life. but my mouth just won't shut. karaoke comp next week, hope to get good remarks. =) (yes, i got 46/50 for english oral WEE)

5 ppl said to me 'wow, your school is real big ah'.
haha yeah.

open house today. started out kinda busy with all the guided tours, showing people the way around school, bringing them everywhere. the most popular venue was science block, the one they had this experiment whereby u put this catalyst in and the whole solution starts erupting. bloody cool. then then i was stoning at the reception after that with justin, and just asked people for bus tour sign-ups and ordering ushers to do guided tours HAHA >.<. ended the day by attending the talk (i was supposd to greet the parents and everything b4 the talk, but i just stood outside and welcomed them in) by mr ng.

how great it feels to be in pri sch once again. u see all of them small and cute. so adorableee!

My predictions and the actual results:
Band 1: Rahimah (Highest), Hady (Average) , Jonathan (Bottom)
Band 2: Paul (Highest), Mathilda (Bottom), Gayle (Average)
Band 3: Joakim (Highest), Nurul (Bottom), Jasmine (Highest)
Band 4: Norman (Eliminated - also predicted he would be out), Emilee (Average), Jay (Average)

Well, predictions kinda screwed up, otherthan the fact that i predicted norman's elimination correctly, which is ultimately the most important. bearing in mind that jasmine screwed up yesterday, she could still be in the group with the highest votes, telling me that her fanbase is HUGE HUGE HUGE. final four definitely. jonathan, on the otherhand, is in bottom 3???? and he was given 'the best performance' accolade. obviously, its not only about the song. but i still thought he and mathilda didn't deserve bottom 4. emilee should've been there based on their performances. and i thought hady deserved something more.

SONGS TO PROMOTE:
1) Sexy Back - Justin Timberlake (lyrics that just turn you on. i'll let you whip me if i misbehave)
2) These Walls - Teddy Geiger
3) No tomorrow - Orson
4) A public affair - Jessica Simpson
5) Inivisble - Ashlee Simpson (sisters...)
6) Boston - Augustana
7) Chasing Cars / Run - Snow Patrol

"A" Grade:

• Rahimah, Hady, Jonathan

Rahimah anchored the song really well, although she's only like 17. diction improved. Hady's rock dj was really really impressive. as in stage presence everything was good. i don't know what ken lim meant by he lacked the attitude. and at the same time, he wanted them to be themselves. huh. jonathan did ok, but i also not sure why the judges liked it so much. thought he went off beat during some parts. but was still pleasant to listen to.

"B" Grade:

• Paul, Mathilda, Gayle

paul is overrated. his performance was bleargh. pitchy. but yeah he has too much media attention, you can't really blame him. mathilda indeed looked aggressive, but frankly speaking, thats the highest note i've ever heard in Singapore Idol history. Gayle was very high, i thought she personally improved a lot. much spunkier.

"C" Grade:

• Joakim, Nurul, Jasmine

for joakim, its the lack of strong vocals, though he is really entertaining i have to admit. nurul chose the wrong song, though it was challenging and she pulled it off, but thought it didn't quite fit the atmosphere. jasmine TYE attempted a jasmine TRIAS 'aint no mountain high enough', which terribly flopped. but well, shes still cute, she'll pull through to next round.

Dying:

• Norman (guess out), Emilee, Jay

norman was boring (weak vocals), jay was boring (song choice), emilee was boring (the whole outlook.... she has morphed into getai queen)

BUT I STILL BELIEVE norman will be eliminated.

here are the photos for the concerts over the past 3 days
yes! thats me emceeing.
1) Thank god i didn't stumble over my words, other than the fact that i said 'ladies and gentlemen'
2) I was able to convert embarassment to entertainment. (trying to get that damned cue card out of my pocket surely was irritating.)
and thats the main choir! (i'm the funny one on the left. clapping his hand when the others aren't clapping. but thats because only the basses are clapping. and i was detached from the rest of my sectionmates.)
the male ensemble!!! (standing in the centre), performing seasons of love and ezekiel saw the wheel. me and chris (below) doing our solo parts haha. heehee. thats me!

haha. this is the NYGH choir. jem is like the 4th on the FIRST row (first. =P)

bored of updating pictures. will update some other day. nygh's choir concert was entertaining overall, with their random screamings and everything. but i think the choir is a tad much overcrowded, in comparison with hci's choir, which only has about 20 members. so yeah, quantity = quality? that i'm not sure. but yep, had a pretty enjoyable time there. good job jem!

next was rgs guitar, which was also at the same venue. siew may auditorium. like omg. somehow i don't really get entertained by guitar concerts, other than the rock band segment, which i seriuosly have a lot of criticism to share. other than tt, yeah tot everything was peeaceful, melodious, aw-so-sweet. after the concert, went supper at king albert park with chenhoon,jiajun,crystal and some other rgs ppl until like 1am. then after the rgs ppl left, we played truth or dare...i mean. 'truth without dare.' and apparently some questions are really sick, and only i kena = l

YAY! my first success being an emcee in a public event.
really happy.
it was really freaky at first. especially b4 the concert began, had lots of pronounciation blunders here and there, and our chereo and song and everything wasn't really up to standrad. conductor decided to let us sleep for 1 hour during the rehearsals coz we were really shacked. so i took the time to memorize my script.

heard from ppl i did pretty well for solo, for the fact that there were no microphones!
my emcee could've been better perhaps, but well its my first time so can't blame me.

wanna thank everyone who came down and supported me despite your very very very busy lives. THANKS GUYS! love you forever!

i was almost dying without a computer for 5 days. holy god. 5 DAYS. without a computer. its only then that u realize u really need a computer to survive, to do your homework, to communicate with people when there are no shows to watch, to basically LIVE ONE'S LIFE TO THE FULLEST. at least i had intensive choir practice, if not i'd just rottted at home and decomposed.

thanks to those people going my concert, 1000 kisses out to you: pei-yi, luke, aaron, eldwin, charlene, yanhan, huihui, jiajun, jemima, ashleen, yuzhou, xiaoyu, jiawei, kelvin, wangye, qianwei, cassandra, adeline, auntie janice, family, sadikin, chenhoon, vivien. many many more yet to thank! MUACKS! not forgetting those who could've come but are too busy, but well in the meantime why should i bother about you =P. thanks for the psychological support though WAHA.

i love my lunches at mcdonalds nowadays. it just breaks you away from the serious and crappy school life. just those happy moments you have. ahhh... now done with emcee speech, printed class keys list, i'm GOING TO SLEEP.

and i'm going to bet all my money on portugal. they are so going to win. france only got old players. germany vs portgual in finals. portugal win DUH. cristiano ronaldo will jus whine in front of the referee if he doesn't get what he wants right? people like rooney fall into his brainless trap.

*i might be making morning announcement tomorrow*. *might*